Day 60... Two months free of porn... YAY !!!
Yes. I can tell a difference. But I still have a long way to go to be where I want to be. But I do feel empowered to a degree and I like it !!!Nearly 60 days. Amazing job. Do you feel your brain changing? Do you feel the neural pathways closing up? I think one can physically tell the difference to yourself. I found that truly inspiring. When you realise your brain can’t beat you, that feeling is SO powerful.
Keep going. Never give up.
Day 67. Been very ill. Stomach Virus. Better today. Very dehydrated. But still porn free.
Day 74. Sorry I ain't been here in a week. Been ill, wound up in the ER with a a saline drip to rehydrate what the vomiting and screaming sh*tties took from my body. They even hit me with morphine, benedryl and composine so I went to lala land for about 16 hours. Fine now but three days ago I would have given $1,000.00 to pass a solid turd. Okay, enough grotesquery I suppose.... I must be an enigma. 74 days in and I still just don't have but the minutest urge to use. Skirts, nylon and heels still trigger, but it has been so easy to just say, "Get thee behind me" and move along with life. I don't. For those of you in that catagory, Bless you!! Is it my advanced age coupled with the fact that internet was not avaialble to me at a young age that makes my struggle less difficult, or am I truly an enigma? I guess it don't matter, this is working....