I've never really given up fighting the addiction, as in I never had a reset and then just stopped trying for any significant length of time.
Lately I've been resetting around the seven-day mark. According to some, this could be a sign that I'm relying too much on willpower. I do tend to get rationalisations around this time, that it's okay to peek at a chat room and that kind of thing. I guess something I'm missing is "community". I don't want to be someone who sacrifices their values and opinions in order to fit in with some community. But I do need a bit more community than I currently have.
Life got extremely crazy in the last couple of weeks. And before that I was dreading what would happen in those weeks. Well at least it's over now. Time for renewal. I've already done a good thing or two since the reset, let's keep going, keep improving.
I really really resonated with this post. I used to turn to chat rooms all the time, they were my weakness and I think at its core it was the community, the connection, and the feeling of being “seen.”
I’ve been 70+ days free of that now and it’s not easy but I’ve tried to be okay with sometimes not being okay. It sounds trite or cliche, but sitting with your feelings sometimes in a raw way is hard work but important work to figure out what you’re missing.
When I realized I was missing connection/community I tried adjusting some habits to see more people at work. I also joined a volleyball league here in town.
I know this reply is about me but, I can really empathize with you so, more than anything, hope you know you have this community, too. I’ve been finding it helpful to come on here and chat on others posts when I’m feeling that urge.
best of luck!