I think it's better for me to stay single for the next two years. Then I will be in another phase of Uni which is not so demanding as the one I am in right now. I want to focus on myself, my studies and my physique.
What is the easypeasy method?Hm. Today I spiraled.
Well. I was watching YT a lot in the evening. Found a triggering video - was looking slightly longer than I should have.
I actually managed to go to sleep without doing anything - an hour later my roommate was really loud, so I woke up - and then I watched YT again and searched for the triggering video. I also went very shortly on a P* side. I did not like what I saw there. Then I turned it off. But was horny and MOed later on. So this was clearly a relapse.
Therefore I will reset my streak - but I absolutely have made progress in the last month. I also don't feel that shitty right now, I know, that this addiction is a thing of the past - really I am a non-user, I kicked it. I dont care about this small setback.
Another thing I did wrong: I tried coffee in the morning, in order to hype me up for studying. That was not good.
What do I take from here?
- I will set a YT and PMO streak - maybe I will even combine both. Because it's the same mechanism in the brain. And I think the real solution is to get of these hyper dopaminergic stimuli all together, this seems to be also much easier for me.
- The easypeasy method works for me - I didn't follow the instructions and peeked, so it's absolutely on me.
- Caffeine is a B*tch to me!