Hei guys!
It's time for an update.
After the exam a friend and I went out to eat pizza with 2 guys that were in our exam group. We had an awesome time - went partying in the evening and one of the 2 guys seems to get a good friend now. Because in the days after that, we 3 went hiking, went out more in the evenings and also had often lunch at the canteen together.
I am so happy to have a manly friendgroup built up!
The last days my brother visited me and we were very active, so I didn't do any journaling and ah all the going out let me to think about girls more often - I didn't stop my thoughts and so yesterday, after my brother left, I had a relapse followed by a YT Session. It's my old me that misses these days. It felt like an hommage to the old depressed days. I don't like these days, but letting them go completely feels so strange - like these days have been my life for so long. I don't know, it must sound super weird, but maybe some of you get what I mean.
So yesterday I was doing bad - reseted my streak already. Whatever. I don't beat myself up about this. Started this morning great, had awesome news regarding the exam. Although more than 35 % didn't pass the exam I managed to score a good grade - let out a scream of happiness!
Now the preparation for the next exam starts. I will write two at the end of august - we don't have lectures during summer, so I can build an awesome routine starting now till September. Roughly my days / weeks will look like this:
Morning starts with journaling followed by a workout every 2nd day - than starting studying at 8 or 9 - I need to figure this out, because morning excercise is new to me, but because of the heat I can't workout in the afternoon. My workout room is under the roof with no isolation - so we are talking more than 40 °C in the afternoon
During studying I track my focused hours, so only the hours I sit focused and learn, I don't count the breaks. A good day without courses / lectures is 6 h focused time. That's what I will be aiming for. I plan to set a definite end of the workday at 18:00. After that I have free time.
With 6 workdays a week this gives me 36 focused hours per week. Good.
At the moment I read "Getting things done" and I am hoping to optimize my study system.
In sum: My progress is huge! Since summer of 2020 I have a life mission - I know exactly my goals for the next 15 years. I am aligning everything in my life to follow this purpose. Because I know where I want to go, I can use the time during basic Uni training to prepare for this course!
I am a bit hesitant to write my exact purpose here, because I want to stay anonymous - and it is really specific. But to give a hint: I chose a career I wanted to do since I was growing up - but I gave up this dream after school, because my grades were not good enough to get into this field. So I studied sth else, went to work in this field - and never felt like fulfilling my purpose. In summer of 2020 I was at my lowest and thought about "what would make me feeld good / proud of myself - why am I here on this planet?" sounds clichee, whatever. My purpose puts not only meaning and a guideline to what courses I will focus on at uni but also on the stuff I do at my freetime.
The reboot seems like a small step on this way, but the basics are super important! I just want to get over this BS. Hm - so not focusing on the reboot at all is not a good idea, but focusing to much and waiting for my life to get better is also really stupid. So I keep going on my journey, keep my journaling and digital minimalism up and will write regulary in this forum.
I wish you all so much love!