Learning to treat myself well
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Blondie
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Sorry to hear this @ADFECTATIO. I've found that internet blockers are often self-deceiving because you think you're safe when in reality, you're not. I know they work for some here, which is great, but as for me, they just don't make the cut. In the end, we have to find ways to rely on ourselves and form the habits and discipline to move forward. It might be quote unquote harder, but in the end, it will make us stronger and test our resolve.
Don't be too hard on yourself, many folks here have experienced the same thing.
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Don't be too hard on yourself, many folks here have experienced the same thing.
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Too many former gamers end up treating them like games. Whatcha gonna do differently? Accountability? A therapist friend in recovery swears by this one: http://spaa-recovery.org/
ADFECTATIO
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Reboot: 1 d
Deep Work: 3.5 h
Deep Work: 3.5 h
It's tough to apply the brakes. It sounds like you need daily support for a while. Here are 2 options, but you may be aware of others.
Blondie
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Let's do this @ADFECTATIO!
Blondie
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Nice job on both counts @ADFECTATIO.
ADFECTATIO
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Day 0 yesterday
ADFECTATIO
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I deleted all the entrys in this tread, because I was ashamed. I thought, I had shared too much about my private life... I wanted to forget about the reboot and everything. And sometimes I still wonder: Would it be better to stop counting the days? I dont know...
I broke up from my girl - the relationship was not working. I tried to fix it, she pulled away more and more until it got really toxic. I didnt go to the gym, I didnt study - actually - the sad thing is, I kind of lost 6 months with this bullshit... Should have broken up in January, but tried to fix it and only after much more damage found the balls to end it in June / July.
Since then I am working on myself again. And it got really better. Invest a lot of time into studying, but I am still not happy with myself - still not getting good grades - and one big exam that is holding me up... I might not have passed it and have to redo it again. And I dont want to "just pass" the exams anymore - I want to feel proud about myself...
Started also going to the gym... different workout program, doing some bodybuilding exercises I have never done bevore, still combined with the heavy lifts.
My streak is crappy... like the last weeks it was 6 - 0 - 3 - 0 - 6 - 0 - 3 aaand today I relapsed and am back at 0 again. But I am trying to not let myself down... the thing is, normally I slip and then a few days go buy where I feel like shit and dont get anything done - but today I went to the gym after the setback, and I was astonished about the good workout I got out...
Day 0
Deep Work: 2,5 h
Gym done
I broke up from my girl - the relationship was not working. I tried to fix it, she pulled away more and more until it got really toxic. I didnt go to the gym, I didnt study - actually - the sad thing is, I kind of lost 6 months with this bullshit... Should have broken up in January, but tried to fix it and only after much more damage found the balls to end it in June / July.
Since then I am working on myself again. And it got really better. Invest a lot of time into studying, but I am still not happy with myself - still not getting good grades - and one big exam that is holding me up... I might not have passed it and have to redo it again. And I dont want to "just pass" the exams anymore - I want to feel proud about myself...
Started also going to the gym... different workout program, doing some bodybuilding exercises I have never done bevore, still combined with the heavy lifts.
My streak is crappy... like the last weeks it was 6 - 0 - 3 - 0 - 6 - 0 - 3 aaand today I relapsed and am back at 0 again. But I am trying to not let myself down... the thing is, normally I slip and then a few days go buy where I feel like shit and dont get anything done - but today I went to the gym after the setback, and I was astonished about the good workout I got out...
Day 0
Deep Work: 2,5 h
Gym done