Donewiththis
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I'm 33 years old and have been watching porn since my early teenage years. It never really occurred to me that I was addicted. I've been able to go weeks without it at times, after all.
However, my wife of 11 years made it very clear early in our marriage that she did not feel comfortable me watching porn. Quietly, I thought she was being unreasonable as guys and even some women at work openly talk about watching porn, reinforcing my belief that it was completely normal behaviour. So I hide it from my wife. Yes, I know, red flag right there. I've been caught a few times and each time she just expressed (what I wrongly interpreted as) disappointment. At times she would mention I was addicted, which I would just dismiss. For years that has been the cycle.
Long story short, one too many lies and one too many times getting caught, she has threatened me with divorce. She is through with the lies and tired of being compared to my porn hoes.
Years of watch porn has finally caught up with me and I have no idea on how to stop. I told her I was going to finally quit only to do it again 4 days later. I need help. My marriage is on thin ice. I never thought it would get to this, but here we all.
I finally did some reading today, fully and finally admitting that I am addicted to porn and learned about rebooting. I want to succeed in this. I want to be 100% committed to it but I need help. I want to stop hurting my wife. There's no one in my life I feel I can talk to about this so I found this forum in hopes to get the support I desperately need. My marriage is dependent on it.
Thank you for reading and thank you in advance for your help.
So here we go.... Day 1...
However, my wife of 11 years made it very clear early in our marriage that she did not feel comfortable me watching porn. Quietly, I thought she was being unreasonable as guys and even some women at work openly talk about watching porn, reinforcing my belief that it was completely normal behaviour. So I hide it from my wife. Yes, I know, red flag right there. I've been caught a few times and each time she just expressed (what I wrongly interpreted as) disappointment. At times she would mention I was addicted, which I would just dismiss. For years that has been the cycle.
Long story short, one too many lies and one too many times getting caught, she has threatened me with divorce. She is through with the lies and tired of being compared to my porn hoes.
Years of watch porn has finally caught up with me and I have no idea on how to stop. I told her I was going to finally quit only to do it again 4 days later. I need help. My marriage is on thin ice. I never thought it would get to this, but here we all.
I finally did some reading today, fully and finally admitting that I am addicted to porn and learned about rebooting. I want to succeed in this. I want to be 100% committed to it but I need help. I want to stop hurting my wife. There's no one in my life I feel I can talk to about this so I found this forum in hopes to get the support I desperately need. My marriage is dependent on it.
Thank you for reading and thank you in advance for your help.
So here we go.... Day 1...