I have some of the same issues. I have gotten pretty good at getting up doing something on my to do list when I get aroused. However, I am at a stage of potential complacency (especially as my darkness is still recent) - and you are right, as the pain subsides, so does the urgency. And my porn brain tells me it's ok. And I have to look back and remind myself its not.Last few days it's been a bit easier. I am not as grumpy (everyone around me knew something was off a couple of weeks ago). I can focus better. My pains are not quite as bad. They are still there though - and I actually think now I have to be especially vigilant as I am starting to "forget" how badly I want to leave P behind.
I should focus on not touching myself all the time. I sit here and notice my hand just goes there and puts a bit of pressure on. Just ramps up the energies ever so much. Does NOT help.
You can do it if you WILL it! I'm not saying you need to, but you CAN.Heard today in SAA meeting about two guys who went 9 months without M’ing. I don’t know if they had normal sex with their partners or whether this was the ultimate monk job. If it was the latter I hope the rewards are worth it. I personally do not think I could do that even if I was paid. Makes you think though.