You kept your shape and know your path. I feel that the dirty feelings are now our protection from escalation, whereas before were a gateway to it.I took a few long long looks at a place where I REALLY should not, cannot, look. Now I am paying the price. Feeling super triggered, and frankly dirty. I gotta learn to control those eyes of mine. Especially around girls way too young for me, or for anyone to have sexual thoughts about. That's the truth.
I won't give in. I've come here instead of heading down the ol' porn road. There isn't any cure to be found there.
On a good note - today it's 7 weeks. 7 weeks where I haven't done any borderline searches. Just staying far away from P. I'm gonna keep doing that.