Really resentful at my wife at the moment so instead of doing anything stupid I am just going to write here. For some background, she and I, and are 2 year old son, are mostly being supported by my wealthy parents who give us a fair amount of money every month from what will eventually be my inheritance (not bragging or trying to make anything uncomfortable, just trying to explain) while I have been working various part time retail jobs for the past few years until something struck my interest. This wasn't the plan. For a while I wanted to try to get back into museums, which is what I studied, but then I moved on from that. My parents told me to find something of interest that would make money, so then I settled on the jewelry industry and becoming a gemologist. So now I am studying part time and working part time at Home Depot just to bring in some money and my parents are helping to pay for me to earn my Applied Jewelry Professional (AJP) diploma from GIA so I can start my career at a jewelry store next year. I will continue on to higher level gemology diplomas further on down the road. My parents, and my wife, also want us to move to the UK to be closer to where they now are, too in the next few years, but that is another topic.
There is so much friction and tension right now between my wife and I because, quite frankly, my wife has gotten too used to me being around, only working about 32 hours a week. I keep reminding her that studying is my entrance ramp for a BETTER LIFE FOR US but this mostly seems to go in one ear and out the other.
This frustrates me because things will not always be this way. Quite frankly I think the distance of me working a full time jewelry sales job would be VERY GOOD for us because I think we just are around eachother so much and get on eachothers nerves right now. It isn't that I don't want to do chores or don't value keeping the house clean. I do, but my wife's definition of a clean home is very different from my own.
I feel like I am not getting enough time to study to really memorize all of the information for my course, and I have two more courses to complete by December (my own deadline) so I can start working in the industry next year. So, what I am doing is just filling my brain with enough to pass this exam (it is open book after all, the course is online) and I am downloading the textbooks for perusal in my own time even after finishing this course.
Needless to say I am just so very frustrated. This situation that my wife has gotten used to is just so artificial. She has to realize that even though she wants to be a stay at home parent, that means I have to go out and get a real full time job to start supporting us financially. My parents have no problem with providing another income for us, for which we are very lucky. But I am so frustrated. We grate eachothers nerves so much being around eachother so much, but it seems like she doesn't want me to go out and work full time. I just can't understand where my wife's head is at.
I am just going to focus on doing what I know is right, work towards being a full time earner for our family. I do want to participate and help with the household chores, raising our son, etc. But my wife has to understand that things will not always be the way they are now. I will start working full time next year and doing what I really should have been doing this whole time. She just has to get used to the idea of me doing a 40 + hour work week.
Isn't this what she wants??? Just so much GAH!
Rich
P.S. Going to be taking the first exam today during our son's nap (it's my day off from work), so wish me luck. I will update with everything later.