I want to live.

ADFECTATIO

ADFECTATIO

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I like that you are reading the easypeasy method and I hope it does serve you good!

Why did you change your journal title?

What does "living" mean to you? How are your days looking? Do you do something useful for others?

Best regards!
 
tay97

tay97

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ADFECTATIO said:
I like that you are reading the easypeasy method and I hope it does serve you good!

Why did you change your journal title?

What does "living" mean to you? How are your days looking? Do you do something useful for others?

Best regards!
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It's really good. I read in the morning when the risk of getting P thoughts is the biggest.

I changed it because I am doing it for me and my life. And the respect of my brother should be a byproduct. I want to live the best life because it is MY life and I only got one.

Living means that I am waking up in the morning and feeling grateful for my physical and mental health. For friends and fam. For my interests and hobbies. Nothing that holds me or any of these factors back like a P addiction does.

I don't do something useful for others.

Thanks for the message. How are you holding up?
 
tay97

tay97

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Day 3 ✅ No P (Day 17 since I started the fight and journal)

I have MO'ed the last few days and feel pretty good. No thoughts of P. Real women interest me a lot, so that's good. I am also better at maintaining eye contact.
 
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Day 4 ✅ No P (Day 18 since I started the fight and journal)

I have nothing to do today. Some quick thoughts about P came up. Read a few chapters in easypeasymethod. Since yesterday I feel way more aggressive. The little monster is trying his best haha. Sorry pal, I will let you starve to death.
 
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tay97 said:
Día 4 desde que empezó la lucha y el diario.

Día 4 ❌ P (escribí la entrada en la mañana, recaí más tarde ese día como pueden ver en mi próxima entrada)
Día 4 ✅ No M
Día 4 ✅ Sin O

Me desperté muy caliente. Esta es la primera vez desde que comencé a tener múltiples sueños sexuales. Que yo recuerde, todos estaban con personas del mismo sexo. Eso es muy interesante. Yo también vivo una pesadilla. Pero eso también podría ser porque ayer vi SAW jajaja.

Estos días tengo un interés básico en casi cualquier chica de mi edad. Con los hombres, tengo un cierto tipo que he alimentado con pornografía a lo largo de los años. Entonces me pregunto si mi sexualidad "cambiará" después de 100 días de NoFap y NoPorn, o cómo actuaré.

Para la gente que no sabe. Entre los bisexuales, hay algo que se llama la bicicleta. Esto significa que su atracción por un género y sus preferencias pueden ser, por ejemplo, "100%" heterosexual durante 2 semanas, luego más homosexual durante 1 semana más o menos y luego heterosexual nuevamente.
Un ciclo interminable de cambios cambiantes. Es una especie de meme y broma, pero es real y yo también lo tengo. También estoy interesado en ver los efectos de NoFap/NoPorn en mi bicicleta.
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Hi Tay, nice to meet you. I am another bisexual who begins my reboot today, and I have your same doubts about the cycles between heterosexuality - homosexuality. If you want to talk to me, you shouldn't have a problem.
 
ADFECTATIO

ADFECTATIO

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tay97 said:
Day 4 ✅ No P (Day 18 since I started the fight and journal)

I have nothing to do today. Some quick thoughts about P came up. Read a few chapters in easypeasymethod. Since yesterday I feel way more aggressive. The little monster is trying his best haha. Sorry pal, I will let you starve to death.
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Great attitude you are in! I think the aggression is normal - I feel it as well in the beginning of a longer clean period. But it will pass and you will feel so much pleasure from normal things :) Keep going and starve the little monster!
 
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Anotheronehere said:
Hi Tay, nice to meet you. I am another bisexual who begins my reboot today, and I have your same doubts about the cycles between heterosexuality - homosexuality. If you want to talk to me, you shouldn't have a problem.
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Hey man, good to see you here. I don't want to chat but I am happy to read how you are holding up.
 
tay97

tay97

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ADFECTATIO said:
Great attitude you are in! I think the aggression is normal - I feel it as well in the beginning of a longer clean period. But it will pass and you will feel so much pleasure from normal things :) Keep going and starve the little monster!
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Yeah, thanks! I actually enjoy these early days of misery.

It feels like I'm sitting in a prison cell with release papers in my hands. I will be a free man soon :)
 
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tay97

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Day 5 ✅ No P (Day 19 since I started the fight and journal)

Lately, I can remember a lot of my dreams, which is something new. Some of them are sexual. The mornings are brually dangerous in regards to failing. What kills my mood immediately is to read a few chapters in easypeasymethod. It's the best. Love it!
 
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Keep going man!! Trust me it’s not worth it… The benefits are insane!!!! The motivation you get to be the best version of yourself and the confidence you have to take on the world is just the best feeling in the world… Women will gravitate to you naturally but but being the best version of yourself is hands down the best
 
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Recovery Will Come said:
Keep going man!! Trust me it’s not worth it… The benefits are insane!!!! The motivation you get to be the best version of yourself and the confidence you have to take on the world is just the best feeling in the world… Women will gravitate to you naturally but but being the best version of yourself is hands down the best
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One question, are you talking about NoFap or just No P?
 
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tay97

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Day 6 ✅ No P (Day 20 since I started the fight and journal)

The easypeasymethod is truely one of the most helpful books I have read so far in regards to beating this addiction. Other than that I masturbate once every day but I don't have problems with interacting with people. I can keep eyecontact and I am confidant.
 
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tay97

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Day 7 ✅ No P (Day 21 since I started the fight and journal)

I have a lot of natural, random boners during the day, which I would say is good.

Otherwise, I constantly look at women outside. I am very interested in them. Sexual thoughts about guys are hardly there anymore. Interesting ...
I also talk to strangers more and I kinda feel the need to socialize overall. Love this development.

Masturbating once (almost) every day helps with my fight against P-addiction and I'm doing well mentally. I don't even know what kind of P I was consuming a week ago. This whole addiction is ridiculous.

Day by day I'm taking back more of my life and there's nothing you can do about it, little monster :ROFLMAO:.
 
ADFECTATIO

ADFECTATIO

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It's nice to see that you like the easypeasy method and that it serves you well!
You are making good progress in killing the little monster :)
 
tay97

tay97

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Day 8 ✅ No P (Day 22 since I started the fight and journal)

Couldn't go for a walk this morning due to hurting my feet a little (a lot of walking in the last days). Other than that, I am still using my imagination for MO and it's very pleasurable. No thoughts about consuming P. I am thinking about changing my entry frequency from daily to every 3 days or so.
 
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tay97

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Day 9 ✅ No P (Day 23 since I started the fight and journal)

My everyday life consists of time at home (video games, surfing, thesis) and working out at the gym. That means the latter is the only way to see and meet women. I use every chance I get to start a conversation with one there. Unfortunately, many women seem very dismissive. This is not a problem. I stay positive and friendly. Today I had the second short conversation with a woman there. Nothing special, I just wanted to start a conversation. Not worth talking about. Many girls seek eye contact with me in the gym. Unfortunately, most of the time there is no chance to get in touch with them. I don't want to be awkward and seem needy, so I play it cool and uninterested even though I am!

I have to do things differently here. Smile more in general and just say hello. Take any chance you get! As a woman, over 50 men look at me like that every day and it's nothing special. But if one of them greets me and expresses friendly, positive interest, that is special!

The second thing I will change is my surfing behavior. So much time and energy I waste on unnecessary info on Reddit, YouTube or anywhere else. It seems impossible to escape this as I have made a habit of a lot of things here: Checking sports news in the morning (and 100 other times during the day), YouTube while eating, Reddit after a workout and turning on a let's play to fall asleep. This is unhealthy. From now on, I will only allow myself to surf the internet on Friday after 3pm.
 
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tay97

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Day 11 ✅ No P (Day 25 since I started the fight and journal)

No urges for P. Nothing else to report. I am thinking about using MO without P for 30 days and then switch to No PMO.
 
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