Following the Light
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Brutus
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Day 112 no PMO
I finally found out where I'm going to be serving my mission! I'll be working in Denver, Colorado and will be leaving on the 23rd of August. It feels so good to finally know where I'll be going, it felt like I was in limbo for a little while there. Missions in my church last for 2 years which is a giant commitment but I know it's what I'm supposed to do in life right now. My life is changing so much since I've received spiritual healing and stopped looking at pornography. Things are way better now and it's easy to stay away from that filth.
I finally found out where I'm going to be serving my mission! I'll be working in Denver, Colorado and will be leaving on the 23rd of August. It feels so good to finally know where I'll be going, it felt like I was in limbo for a little while there. Missions in my church last for 2 years which is a giant commitment but I know it's what I'm supposed to do in life right now. My life is changing so much since I've received spiritual healing and stopped looking at pornography. Things are way better now and it's easy to stay away from that filth.
Brutus
Active Member
Day 113 no PMO
I had a good day today. I was able to pack for an upcoming camping trip and also attended a beautiful funeral service that was for a member of my church. It was sad but uplifting at the same time.
I've been announcing my mission call to friends and family since I received it on Wednesday. I've been telling people that I was going to go on a mission for many years but the addiction kept me from doing so. Feels great to finally be going after all this time. It's time to move forward from this addiction and to never look back.
I had a good day today. I was able to pack for an upcoming camping trip and also attended a beautiful funeral service that was for a member of my church. It was sad but uplifting at the same time.
I've been announcing my mission call to friends and family since I received it on Wednesday. I've been telling people that I was going to go on a mission for many years but the addiction kept me from doing so. Feels great to finally be going after all this time. It's time to move forward from this addiction and to never look back.
Brutus
Active Member
Day 114 no PMO
I will primarily be preaching about Jesus Christ and helping others to form a personal relationship with Him. I'll also serve in the community and the local congregation. Our church has a welfare program that gives food to needy members, similar to the Salvation Army. I'll definitely be spending time serving there. I'll be helping members who are moving in/out of the area, doing yard work, helping with charity drives. Basically helping to meet the individual needs of church members and those interested in joining, along with service in the community. I'm looking forward to the whole experience. It will be really hard but rewarding work.
Brutus
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Day 120 no PMO!
Man, 4 months already! I feel way better now, recovering at a consistent pace.
I had a good week while camping. I handled the triggers I encountered well. I usually don't get very good sleep while camping, which was definitely true for this trip. There were really loud birds or bugs in the trees that were chirping from dusk until 4 AM every morning. I played some music, prayed, anything besides thinking about PMO while laying in bed. Another trigger came from some girls who were staying at a summer camp on the lakeside nearby. Our young men were cliff jumping into the lake when a group of about 20 seventeen-eighteen year-olds came by to take pictures and jump in the lake too. They were all wearing 2 piece swimming suits! I decided to just keep my eyes on other stuff. It's still tough but it's getting easier.
Man, 4 months already! I feel way better now, recovering at a consistent pace.
I had a good week while camping. I handled the triggers I encountered well. I usually don't get very good sleep while camping, which was definitely true for this trip. There were really loud birds or bugs in the trees that were chirping from dusk until 4 AM every morning. I played some music, prayed, anything besides thinking about PMO while laying in bed. Another trigger came from some girls who were staying at a summer camp on the lakeside nearby. Our young men were cliff jumping into the lake when a group of about 20 seventeen-eighteen year-olds came by to take pictures and jump in the lake too. They were all wearing 2 piece swimming suits! I decided to just keep my eyes on other stuff. It's still tough but it's getting easier.
tay97
Active Member
I go to a nearby lake very often and those girls man ... I don't know how to stop this craving for their bodies. I just know, that porn is not the solution.
tay97
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It's not that we have eyecontact. Most of them don't look like they want to be approached.
tay97
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Can't wait to have this special aura around me after a few weeks of semen retention. On day 5 rn.
Brutus
Active Member
Day 123 no PMO
I had another semi-conscious wet dream last night. I was dreaming about looking at porn while it was happening which made me feel some urges to actually relapse this morning. I decided that wasn't going to happen and went on a bike ride instead. I got too many days built up to be messing around with urges again.
I checked my weight today and found I'm 133 Lbs, down from 158 last December which is a result of completely changing my diet. Looking a lot more lean in general, now it's time to build some muscle
I had another semi-conscious wet dream last night. I was dreaming about looking at porn while it was happening which made me feel some urges to actually relapse this morning. I decided that wasn't going to happen and went on a bike ride instead. I got too many days built up to be messing around with urges again.
I checked my weight today and found I'm 133 Lbs, down from 158 last December which is a result of completely changing my diet. Looking a lot more lean in general, now it's time to build some muscle
Brutus
Active Member
Day 124 no PMO
This last Sunday evening was a really good Addiction Recovery Program meeting. I was able to have a conversation with a member who is close to my age. He went to serve a mission in Washington but came home early because of the addiction. We were able to talk about guilt, shame, the intricacies of the addiction and a few other things. I was also able to encourage him to keep coming to meetings, which has helped immensely in my own recovery. It's a great feeling to deeply connect with others who share the same struggle as me. Strange how the addiction brought us closer together and has even created a deeper level of understanding.
This last Sunday evening was a really good Addiction Recovery Program meeting. I was able to have a conversation with a member who is close to my age. He went to serve a mission in Washington but came home early because of the addiction. We were able to talk about guilt, shame, the intricacies of the addiction and a few other things. I was also able to encourage him to keep coming to meetings, which has helped immensely in my own recovery. It's a great feeling to deeply connect with others who share the same struggle as me. Strange how the addiction brought us closer together and has even created a deeper level of understanding.
