Blondie
Respected Member
Good to hear you're getting over your shame @Warhawk88, shame for the most part, does NOT help us in the end.
I think your friend is right about seeing recovery in a more holistic sense, and thinking about it from the the day you actually started, more than necessarily going only by the streaks themselves. This is definitely one of those semi "contradictions" of recovery, where it's easy to get lost on either side of the argument, and lose the forest for the trees. Both your streaks and you initial date are important, and are indicators of your overall improvement, but focusing on one more than the other can cause problems.
I also say I quit porn almost five years ago, April 24th 2018 to be exact. However, I've had about a month's worth of relapses since that date, but in general, I've been clean the entire time. There is a considerable difference between the man B.Q.P and the man A.P. (before quitting porn, after porn), who looked at porn like it was a normal day occurrence. Although it hasn't been a perfect streak, my life has considerably changed for the better, and thus, I still keep that date. However, if my life had not considerably changed from that date forward, then yes, I would probably have a hard time acting like it was the official date of no return. It would create too much cognitive dissonance to say that truthfully.
Thinking in black and white here will kill you in the end. On one hand you have to go by your intuition but yet on the other, you can't lie to yourself.
Congrats on jumping back on the bandwagon.
Have a great porn-free weekend.
I think your friend is right about seeing recovery in a more holistic sense, and thinking about it from the the day you actually started, more than necessarily going only by the streaks themselves. This is definitely one of those semi "contradictions" of recovery, where it's easy to get lost on either side of the argument, and lose the forest for the trees. Both your streaks and you initial date are important, and are indicators of your overall improvement, but focusing on one more than the other can cause problems.
I also say I quit porn almost five years ago, April 24th 2018 to be exact. However, I've had about a month's worth of relapses since that date, but in general, I've been clean the entire time. There is a considerable difference between the man B.Q.P and the man A.P. (before quitting porn, after porn), who looked at porn like it was a normal day occurrence. Although it hasn't been a perfect streak, my life has considerably changed for the better, and thus, I still keep that date. However, if my life had not considerably changed from that date forward, then yes, I would probably have a hard time acting like it was the official date of no return. It would create too much cognitive dissonance to say that truthfully.
Thinking in black and white here will kill you in the end. On one hand you have to go by your intuition but yet on the other, you can't lie to yourself.
Congrats on jumping back on the bandwagon.
Have a great porn-free weekend.