Taking back the life I squandered.

Ren

Member
Huge migraine, that temptation keeps knocking.
I need to find better ways of coping with all of this. Relapsing can't be the answer. I'll endure another day, but maybe the way I'm standing my ground right now won't work for long.

But a relapse won't help me.
Let's see what we'll do.
 

Ren

Member
Major fight with my family. Feel like shit, need some comfort, maybe a hug.
Oh God, why did this have to happen today. I was fighting so well.
Hope I do not relapse. I feel terrible.
 

BrassBalls707

Active Member
Major fight with my family. Feel like shit, need some comfort, maybe a hug.
Oh God, why did this have to happen today. I was fighting so well.
Hope I do not relapse. I feel terrible.

Awareness precedes control. Sabotage your accessibility to porn. Find activities that alleviate these triggers and the urges will shrink or vanish.

It's okay to feel terrible, some setbacks are outside our control. You decide how to deal with them. You're doing well! 💪
 

Ren

Member
Awareness precedes control. Sabotage your accessibility to porn. Find activities that alleviate these triggers and the urges will shrink or vanish.

It's okay to feel terrible, some setbacks are outside our control. You decide how to deal with them. You're doing well! 💪
I've failed u guys.
Rising up to try again.
Strong emotions are very difficult to deal to me.
 

Ren

Member
Day 0

Now here I am restarting.
Will it be easier now? Definitely, I just need to do the same thing I did before relapse.
But I need better ways to cope with emotional hurt and pain.

I don't do drugs, I don't do games, and emotional pain always left me broken. I gave in so I could find relief. Not trying to blame anyone or justify my actions, but that was the reason, no other. Urges I can fight, but I don't know how to deal with emotional hurt yet.

Either way...
I'll find something good to deal with this problem.
Even if I have to start doing games.
 

Ren

Member
I don't feel too pressured today.
Maybe due to the release, I don't know.
Something tells me the progress is there.
Let's try a longer streak: One week.

If we get one week, we try two.
If we get two, we try one month.
After one month, we try another one.
If two months, then four months.

By four months maybe the amount of days won't be important anymore.
 

Ren

Member
It's 1:55 AM.
And I think I am seeing the end of my relationship.

The pain is here.
The sadness.
Feeling lost. Hurt.

Not knowing what to do.
Do I wanna break up? No.
But maybe

Maybe it's already over.
And I'm here.
Alone.
Sad.

I don't wanna explain what happened.
I just want the pain to go away.
I'm not ashamed of admitting my weaknesses, I just wish this haven't happened. Family I can heal fast, but not the person I wanted to spend my life with.

The future is uncertain.
I will keep trying, but now I don't care anymore.

Guess I'm not strong enough yet.
 

Ren

Member
It's 1:55 AM.
And I think I am seeing the end of my relationship.

The pain is here.
The sadness.
Feeling lost. Hurt.

Not knowing what to do.
Do I wanna break up? No.
But maybe

Maybe it's already over.
And I'm here.
Alone.
Sad.

I don't wanna explain what happened.
I just want the pain to go away.
I'm not ashamed of admitting my weaknesses, I just wish this haven't happened. Family I can heal fast, but not the person I wanted to spend my life with.

The future is uncertain.
I will keep trying, but now I don't care anymore.

Guess I'm not strong enough yet.
I definitely can't reboot like this
I can try though
 
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Ren

Member
Day 0

I tried to numb the pain.
I don't feel bad about losing the streak.
But this time, numbing didn't work. Because it's too much pain to numb.

It feels like someone took my heart out and left the pain there.

Had a terrible nightmare, couldn't sleep well.
I wish I could relief this.
 
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