Taking back the life I squandered.
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BrassBalls707
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Ren
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I've failed u guys.Awareness precedes control. Sabotage your accessibility to porn. Find activities that alleviate these triggers and the urges will shrink or vanish.
It's okay to feel terrible, some setbacks are outside our control. You decide how to deal with them. You're doing well!
Rising up to try again.
Strong emotions are very difficult to deal to me.
Ren
Member
Yeah, will do.
Ren
Member
Day 0
Now here I am restarting.
Will it be easier now? Definitely, I just need to do the same thing I did before relapse.
But I need better ways to cope with emotional hurt and pain.
I don't do drugs, I don't do games, and emotional pain always left me broken. I gave in so I could find relief. Not trying to blame anyone or justify my actions, but that was the reason, no other. Urges I can fight, but I don't know how to deal with emotional hurt yet.
Either way...
I'll find something good to deal with this problem.
Even if I have to start doing games.
Now here I am restarting.
Will it be easier now? Definitely, I just need to do the same thing I did before relapse.
But I need better ways to cope with emotional hurt and pain.
I don't do drugs, I don't do games, and emotional pain always left me broken. I gave in so I could find relief. Not trying to blame anyone or justify my actions, but that was the reason, no other. Urges I can fight, but I don't know how to deal with emotional hurt yet.
Either way...
I'll find something good to deal with this problem.
Even if I have to start doing games.
Ren
Member
I don't feel too pressured today.
Maybe due to the release, I don't know.
Something tells me the progress is there.
Let's try a longer streak: One week.
If we get one week, we try two.
If we get two, we try one month.
After one month, we try another one.
If two months, then four months.
By four months maybe the amount of days won't be important anymore.
Maybe due to the release, I don't know.
Something tells me the progress is there.
Let's try a longer streak: One week.
If we get one week, we try two.
If we get two, we try one month.
After one month, we try another one.
If two months, then four months.
By four months maybe the amount of days won't be important anymore.
BrassBalls707
Active Member
Ren
Member
It's 1:55 AM.
And I think I am seeing the end of my relationship.
The pain is here.
The sadness.
Feeling lost. Hurt.
Not knowing what to do.
Do I wanna break up? No.
But maybe
Maybe it's already over.
And I'm here.
Alone.
Sad.
I don't wanna explain what happened.
I just want the pain to go away.
I'm not ashamed of admitting my weaknesses, I just wish this haven't happened. Family I can heal fast, but not the person I wanted to spend my life with.
The future is uncertain.
I will keep trying, but now I don't care anymore.
Guess I'm not strong enough yet.
And I think I am seeing the end of my relationship.
The pain is here.
The sadness.
Feeling lost. Hurt.
Not knowing what to do.
Do I wanna break up? No.
But maybe
Maybe it's already over.
And I'm here.
Alone.
Sad.
I don't wanna explain what happened.
I just want the pain to go away.
I'm not ashamed of admitting my weaknesses, I just wish this haven't happened. Family I can heal fast, but not the person I wanted to spend my life with.
The future is uncertain.
I will keep trying, but now I don't care anymore.
Guess I'm not strong enough yet.
Ren
Member
Day 0
I tried to numb the pain.
I don't feel bad about losing the streak.
But this time, numbing didn't work. Because it's too much pain to numb.
It feels like someone took my heart out and left the pain there.
Had a terrible nightmare, couldn't sleep well.
I wish I could relief this.
I tried to numb the pain.
I don't feel bad about losing the streak.
But this time, numbing didn't work. Because it's too much pain to numb.
It feels like someone took my heart out and left the pain there.
Had a terrible nightmare, couldn't sleep well.
I wish I could relief this.