Andrew_Tracker
New Member
PROLOGUE
Hi there! Well, I don't know exactly how to tell my story, but here I go.
I'm a 21 year old male, single and straight. When I was 11 years old, I remembered saw porn in a documentary in TV. Maybe, it was accidentally, but I after that I wanted to understand what was happening there.
All started with simple porn like underwear or swimsuits models, body parts, puberty, etc., but things were getting worse after I learned how to fapping at 12.
Along 5 years (12-16 years old), my PMO habit was out of control. I did it before or after school, or I couldn't concentrate while I was in there. My mind was completely blocked.
I remembered trying a "Rebooting" when I was 16, but it last 2 months before I returned to a new escalated porn habit.
During last 5 years (17 - 21 years old), my addiction has lead me to develop porn addiction symptoms like inflated sex drive, low self-steem about my physicial appearence, poor concentration, depression, HOCD and maybe PIED.
So, I've been "tracking" seriously my adicction since the last 6 months, and my father told me one day: "If you don't do it to respect anyone else, at least do it to respect yourself".
Those were the words that make me realize that I'm not even recpecting myself, and if I'm not capable of that, how am I going to respect my parents, my friends, the rest of my family or even my future wife or my children.
Because of this, I've decided to start this new and reformed "Reboot" by all I have. I decided the "90 days without PMO" intially, and I'm in my third week by now.
I'm still looking for an AP. Maybe it's the first time that I talk about my problem with someone else, but this time I feel that it could be different.
See you at the forum.
-Andrew
Hi there! Well, I don't know exactly how to tell my story, but here I go.
I'm a 21 year old male, single and straight. When I was 11 years old, I remembered saw porn in a documentary in TV. Maybe, it was accidentally, but I after that I wanted to understand what was happening there.
All started with simple porn like underwear or swimsuits models, body parts, puberty, etc., but things were getting worse after I learned how to fapping at 12.
Along 5 years (12-16 years old), my PMO habit was out of control. I did it before or after school, or I couldn't concentrate while I was in there. My mind was completely blocked.
I remembered trying a "Rebooting" when I was 16, but it last 2 months before I returned to a new escalated porn habit.
During last 5 years (17 - 21 years old), my addiction has lead me to develop porn addiction symptoms like inflated sex drive, low self-steem about my physicial appearence, poor concentration, depression, HOCD and maybe PIED.
So, I've been "tracking" seriously my adicction since the last 6 months, and my father told me one day: "If you don't do it to respect anyone else, at least do it to respect yourself".
Those were the words that make me realize that I'm not even recpecting myself, and if I'm not capable of that, how am I going to respect my parents, my friends, the rest of my family or even my future wife or my children.
Because of this, I've decided to start this new and reformed "Reboot" by all I have. I decided the "90 days without PMO" intially, and I'm in my third week by now.
I'm still looking for an AP. Maybe it's the first time that I talk about my problem with someone else, but this time I feel that it could be different.
See you at the forum.
-Andrew
