lightspear42
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Dang it I am getting waves of temptation to go back on the death cycle. It's so easy but so destructive. I am talking to my wife about it and that is helping but everything that I do to offset this temptation seems to have an effective duration and when that effectiveness wears off I am back to being tempted.
That is, when I am facing the waves of temptation. When I am more normally stable all the socializing helps just keep me in a healthy frame of mind and spirit.
But right now I am facing the waves. It makes me long for the peace. Which is another thing to push me back into the death cycle. The moment I give in the pain of temptation goes away! No wonder this issue is so hard to overcome.
That is, when I am facing the waves of temptation. When I am more normally stable all the socializing helps just keep me in a healthy frame of mind and spirit.
But right now I am facing the waves. It makes me long for the peace. Which is another thing to push me back into the death cycle. The moment I give in the pain of temptation goes away! No wonder this issue is so hard to overcome.