Fighting for my freedom💪
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I'm back after a month. My friend and partner FiveFortyFour helped me to get my confidence back. I was not posting my journals because I lost all my strength and willpower to move forward. I was hopeless. I was not trying to improve myself rather i was trying not to destroy myself. That hopelessness was pulling me down. I've to admit that i do have suicidal tendency. Sometimes it feels like either suicide or porn is the only for my problems. Even the smallest problem makes me feel sick.
It's no joke to say that porn has destroyed me from inside. I'm on a journey where there is no u-turn, I've to just move forward.
PRAY FOR ME
It's no joke to say that porn has destroyed me from inside. I'm on a journey where there is no u-turn, I've to just move forward.
PRAY FOR ME
sho0fl
Active Member
Try avoiding all of your mistakes, otherwise you'll be back at the new beginning you had previously.
Analyze your behavior and try to change it. Like really try to change it, don't just think you're. See what works to avoid some compulsive instincts to watch P. Remove all of your triggers (if possible).
Make sure to avoid it all costs during the first weeks so that you can clear your head and see things better.
Good luck man
Analyze your behavior and try to change it. Like really try to change it, don't just think you're. See what works to avoid some compulsive instincts to watch P. Remove all of your triggers (if possible).
Make sure to avoid it all costs during the first weeks so that you can clear your head and see things better.
Good luck man
5yrs_is_enough
Member
It’s never too late to bring back your old routines
FiveFortyFour
Active Member
Glad you're back on the wagon, bro. You'll get through this stronger.
Now, how often do you use your phone outside of studying? If possible, do you think you could set timers while studying to stand up, get a glass of water, do some stretches, maybe even go for a walk? Anything to get up and distract yourself for a brief spell?
Day 2:
NO PMO
I know it is common to face some difficulties initially. Faced some urges.
I almost spends 10 hours taking online classes for various subjects. It is also a plus point for me because during this period my mind is focused on my studies.
I making a preventive plan for some of my major triggers or cues. Any suggestions?
NO PMO
I know it is common to face some difficulties initially. Faced some urges.
I almost spends 10 hours taking online classes for various subjects. It is also a plus point for me because during this period my mind is focused on my studies.
I making a preventive plan for some of my major triggers or cues. Any suggestions?
Thank you brother
FiveFortyFour
Active Member
Well, I do have one sorta off-the-wall idea that may or may not work for you. A while back, I got ahold of this decorative broadsword that I keep around my room. Sometimes, if the urges are screaming in my ear, I'll go and slide it out of its sheathe and give it a few swings. Something about big, forceful physical actions seems to reassert my sense of dominance over myself. I'm not sure if you're the type to just have medieval weaponry lying around, but even if it's just something like a cane or a ruler or something, if you've got a nice clear space, maybe giving it a few swings and stabs could get you re-focused when your grip is slipping.
Weird idea, but unconventional enemies call for unconventional strategies. Other than that, remember that we all believe in you, bossman.
That's a new idea. For this, I have to apply for a Weapon licence
.I do have a ruler, by the way.
FiveFortyFour
Active Member
Oh, and another thing that may or may not help, especially with the urges in bed. Take your scriptures into bed with you. Read a portion if you need encouragement, and otherwise keep them closeby.
Might seem a little odd, but it's helped me in a pinch. You're doing great, man!
Thanks for this suggestion brother. I will surely do it.