Starting Again

[Icey]

So, first things first, my name is Ivan, I'm not uncomfortable saying my name because it helps me to commit further to this let's call it "Quest"? "Mission"? This porn quitting thing I do to improve.

Let's go ahead and start with presentations

I just turned 18, young, healthy, relativelly fit (bit keen on sports, doing kickboxing now!) , no previous problems apart from phimosis operation and a slight asthma. I have been struggling with porn adicction and porn induced ED for quite some time now, for a year and 2 months more or less, right around when I realized I had it and it started messing up my sexual life with both partners I've had.

I've been trying to quit porn entirelly for around 6 to 7 months, always telling me this was the problem and that I need to finally quit but never being really able to.
My longest run was around when I was studying for my university-applying exams and that lasted around 2 weeks. Two weeks which made me able to improve a bit, not much but noticeable with my partner.

I just fell again after 5 days and I'm tired, tired of thinking "yeah I can quit whenever I want" but always failing.

The overall plan is to make this post a thread of my personal experience quitting porn, not only masturbation, but seeing porn as well.
I'll be documenting it's effects and doing like a full-on internet journal, telling things about my day but prioritizing on the sex-related stuff.

So day 1! Or more like day 0,3 because I just fapped.
"So day 0,3!" Wish me luck guys, and to anyone that's reading this and also is trying to quitt:
Let's start this journey together! (hey I like that word more than "mission" or quest, makes me feel like im not in an rpg)

 

[Icey]

Day 2:
Today I have been to the beach, by the night it has been hard trying to contain the urge to do it, but I slept myself through it.
It was really fun today, me and my grandma went gathering sea shells and had a laugh with my dad at some bad rocky-band that was playing on the bar.

 

[TryingHarder]

Welcome to the forum, Icey. All I can say is: it's very important that you break the addiction now while you're still young, or it's going to mess up your life for many years. Sounds like you're on the right track. Good luck with your journey!

 

[Icey]

Day 3,4 and 5
These days have been hard, not thinking about masturbation and or seeing sexual-related content is hard, I struggle at most in the nights and some evenings.
I get pass trough the nights sleeping, so that's not a problem, and in evenings I look at the ceiling and that usually works out fine, but I still fear I fall again.

In the perspective of my normal life, It's been great! Hanged out with my english friend on the pool, keep on my kickboxing sport and overall hanging out with friends and doing the things I like!

I'm going to see Sting from the police and start driving lessons next week so, wish me luck boys!

 

[TryingHarder]

Wow, you're getting driving lessons from Sting? Cool!

Good move spending time with friends - that will help. In fact, do what you can to change your usual routine. That will help keep you away from old habits and back to porn.

 

[Icey]

Welcome to the forum, Icey. All I can say is: it's very important that you break the addiction now while you're still young, or it's going to mess up your life for many years. Sounds like you're on the right track. Good luck with your journey!

Thanks! I'll do my best!