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Daybyday1988

Active Member
congrats, buddy. 60 days will be a huge milestone. considering that early on most guys were recovery at 90 days, that would make you nearly 2/3 of the way there!
 

arandomguy

Member
Day 53 - resolved today to leave twitter once again. I got back after a while due to a learning project and made a creeping habit of spending more and more time. I've realized it's getting harder to leave and easier to get tempted since then. I won't deactivate because of the project but won't be spending any time there consuming content.
Ooh..and a daily devotional I started with a friend has been quite helpful over the past 10 days.
 

arandomguy

Member
Day 68 - I've fallen to MO again and wasn't pretty. Really erodes from the process. Hate it so much.
Felt a really really strong urge for P today..ended up M'ing. Going on to twitter to pass time and seeing something very sexual on the trendlist made it worse. My whole body wanted me to click on it and I know what I'd have found on the other side. Glad I didn't; not going back to P by any means.
 

Daybyday1988

Active Member
Going on to twitter to pass time and seeing something very sexual on the trendlist

this is another reason i love the blocking software i use. It can keep me off of any site i want to add to the list. this could even be social media like twitter, facebook etc. Because P or suggestive photos or videos are pretty much everywhere on the internet. Kind of crazy actually
 

arandomguy

Member
this is another reason i love the blocking software i use. It can keep me off of any site i want to add to the list. this could even be social media like twitter, facebook etc. Because P or suggestive photos or videos are pretty much everywhere on the internet. Kind of crazy actually
I should get one. Yeah, it's pretty crazy how sexualized everything is. Doesn't make recovery any easier.
 

arandomguy

Member
Day 69 - it's been a good but busy day. Haven't had any urges today and happy for that. Also the first time in ages that I've journalled on back to back days.
Happy days..
 

arandomguy

Member
Day 81 - thinking about how I started on here and man I'm grateful for the progress. Days have been much easier and porn doesn't occur much to my brain now - when I get urges my mind is always on having a good time with my girl and nothing else. Those too can be destructive because I'm tempted to switch to porn as a way out if I can't have her. But still it's been a great steady decrease even in this.
I've failed in MO many more times than I'd have wanted - which is zero. But hoping to grow in this too. Everyday is a new chance.
 
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