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@Blondie!
I hope everyone had a great porn free weekend!
I am doing pretty good. Absolutely Wild Fri, Sat, Sun, Mon.
On the fuck porn front - no problems
Day 71 today no PMO
Work was bonkers friday before the long weekend, Saturday was house prep/projects for the family Labor Day party on sunday. Sunday was pretty much all day party lol, let loose quite a bit. gave myself a break from tracking calories, ate what i wanted and had plenty of drinks to have a little escape. enjoyed the company and the festivities. Yesterday was clean up and recovery.
Facing some challenges with my emotions though. Fri/Sat then yesterday AM facing some fast and hard swinging flat lines and periods of very positive up's. Can be day by day (one day flat, the next normal). That tied in with some stress about the overall goal/scope/feasibility of money vs effort with renovating the house is causing friction. The feelings of needing to be patient while also wanting to just get things done because its been 2 years of hard effort (no closer to being complete) caused some stressful emotional conversations with my fiancé in regards to limits, energy etc. Without having a solid stress relief besides the gym/exercise, it was a rough weekend.
During the up periods over the last few days i have also been facing extreme horniness. No porn urges but intense attraction to my Fiance which on one hand is absolutely awesome to share. However she is also going through her own 90 days of no M/O - she has never had an issue with porn but she has a goal of not having to use a toy to be satisfied due to 10 to 15 years of her having to use one. So she is in a dont kiss, cuddle, pretty much anything that will turn her on. so being supportive of her journey since she is supportive of mine it is a bit difficult to not have much physical connection. Its not 100% null but I am just very much looking forward to 19 days from now when her and I think we will re-engage that side of the journey. Physically connecting to whatever degree it leads to.
A few different roller coasters that are being managed at the moment.
So plenty of good over the last 5 days, plenty of challenge.
Standing Firm while reflecting on what is next
