Day 5 no PMO - Gym day as well (going to the gym at least 4 times a week currently. 30min walk. 3 sets to failure Shoulder Press, 3 sets to Failure Leg Press, 3 sets to failure Tricep Extension. Just waking up each muscle group this week since i havent lifted in 6 months.
My strategy this time.
Absolutely No P or M. O will be what it is, i am not actively seeking it but if my Fiancé is interested I wont tell her no, and if i am in a bad flat line we will focus on other options/styles/connections etc i wont force it.
Focus on listening to myself and watching myself to identify triggers
Create a pattern interrupt - this is the gym 100% because i have a lot of weight to lose and plenty of health aspects to improve but i need to find a in the moment pattern interrupt which could be push ups/walk, but want to find something else that works too just not sure what that is yet
Access - I did not do anything besides sheer willpower and discipline to make it hard to access P or Dopamine crushing things. I seriously am thinking about it this go round. and a big emphasis on social media, tick tock etc even if not viewing any sort of P or risque type material i really want the Dopamine reset from mindless scrolling of anything
Day 10 yesterday plus gym day! Got a great burn for chest day. Really getting excited about being back at the gym. I have about 110lbs to lose but i have to start somewhere. I cant achieve unless i start. best i have done is lost 75 lbs before granted bad habits and lack of lifestyle change is why i gained it back but 2 years away from 40 time to make this happen for good
Day 11 today - what an absolutely bonkers work day. Head down push through
Day 12 - i know tougher days are still ahead but i am still very excited that i have restarted the journey. Embracing new habits and incorporating more partner support to achieve longer success this time. Not sure why it took so long to restart again but no point in negatively reflecting on the past. I will keep moving forward.
Had a good workout as well this morning and 3 days in a row controlled eating. Its a positive start
Day 13 (Sat) was a great day super full of fun with the family from 8am dance all the way through a graduation party getting home for the kids bed time. Prioritizing whats best, connections and accountability.
Day 14 today - 545am gym. For me my cold brew tastes best after a hard workout. Keep it low calorie with just a little sugar and milk. Opening the pool was wicked easy compared to last year. Beautiful weather just enjoyed a lot of outdoors time and feeling accomplished.
Woaw.... had to share this one as i havent heard it before. It may have been said somewhere in here and i know we say it in different ways, but feels fresh and powerful for me today. It was at the end of a Motivational Video about this fight we are fighting.
Don't count the days. Make the days count
I personally like the count, i know it doesnt work for everyone, but i really believe within every fiber of my being that what matters is the determination to make every day from your decision to stop using Porn forward, and to make it count in all the ways you want to or need to.
Day 16 - had a day off of work to hang out with my toddler, it was crazy and fun all the while exhausting but worthwhile for sure. Pool up and running and looking forward to a great weekend ahead, a little mini 3 day vaca.
Day 18 - did an extra morning in the Gym just exercise due to eating out at a restaurant yesterday for a Bday Dinner and that's my way of being accountable to the extra calories. I made positive choices it was a marinated roasted half chicken with potatoes and spinach but just not sure of the oil content or butter content they marinated/cooked it in haha
Very excited to report I am down 6 lbs over the last 2 weeks, first weigh in since i started 2 weeks ago. 3lbs a week is a bit more than i want to lose each week but expecting some of that is balancing weight, first weigh in etc (water etc), happens each time i restart heavily focus on controlled eating and working out etc and balances out over time. Goal is an average of 2lbs a week. Consuming high levels of protein to try to limit muscle loss.
WFH Day - i love being able to mow my lawn on my lunch break haha such a simple win
I probably wont post again until Monday or Tuesday. Best friends wedding this weekend and will be out of town with my Fiance, finally a weekend away without the kiddo's . It shall be filled with fun and memories and positive connection.
I wish everyone a fantastic weekend/long weekend depending where you are. Keep Strong, Stay Porn Free, and keep moving forward regardless!
Alright today is Day 24 - A Wed - back to the normal work grind. 30min cardio this morning plus 40 min of lifting. Wed for me is Shoulder/Back. Wednesdays are also my weigh in days. I am extremely happy with my results from last week. I only lost 0.2lbs but that is a win for how many times i had to eat out while traveling over the long weekend. Down 6.6lbs total so far, excited for more. I meal prepped my lunches for the rest of the week and i am focused on continuing my weight loss/weight lifting.