Day 9 or 55 since I started
Since the dream reel has started rolling it just won't stop. Feels awesome, I'm getting two or more dreams per day.
One of the dreams was playing with my imagination and I figured I was in a big castle, like one you would find in a movie like Beauty and the Beast (think old school version). Was nice, just exploring and I had this feeling that I'm the owner of that castle. After some time I felt a presence that threatened me. This is where the trail of this dream grows cold.
The next I don't remember but I can definitely remember the last one. It involved a cute girl that wasn't that friendly to me but fancied me either way. She had troubles and was running away so I offered refuge and we begun running away together. Before you get any ideas that's where I woke up.
Alright, if you're not into reading
Freud I can add my knowledge here - running from something usually means I have some unfinished business. If it was a house it would usually indicate a safe place. As it's an unknown castle, that I felt good in, it means new safety is found. To sum, my interpretation of this is that there's a new safe heaven for me, given I finish an unfinished deed. Care to guess what that is?
The girl part I fathom is separated into two parts. Just as girls usually have the tendency of wanting to be mothers, men usually have the feeling of wanting to protect something, hey, the dream made the perfect setup for this. The obvious fact, that there was a girl, would indicate that I'm lonely and long for this - true.
Alright, let's get to how my day went
Standard routine (Gym -> Food -> Work -> writing this -> will be studying). Got morning wood, although, I have noticed that my previous days the little guy was rising stronger. Now it's just, meh, here's some blood but not that much.
I am feeling a mighty apathy towards stuff that I find boring. I find a lot of things boring these days. Dopamine being low?
I have also tried to remember P that my brain would find interesting and driven towards. I don't know what it is, but oh man, I don't feel anything towards it. This goes with saying that I'm not that stupid to think I've won the war or something. You never know when the P monster will strike. But I enjoy this serenity for now, although it also involves this apathy. And if I can keep not giving a f*ck for P or any sexy pixels I'm in a good spot. If not, I'm pretty conscious now to know what's happening.
I've also read more mythology, will be studying today and I'm also seeing progress there as well. Actually, on a lot of fronts which can only inspire me to add on top of this.
Feels good today guys, ignore the apathy and all. Cheers