Awareness
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Hi rebooters,
I try to keep it as simple as possible:
I am 31 years old. I've been trying to quit PMO since my early twenties - almost ten years now - and tried nearly everything:
- 12-Step-Group (I have worked all the 12 Steps in almost two years and tried to find a higher power)
- I had a recovery coach
- I have completed an online program
- I downloaded apps, listened to podcasts, have read books, discovered my inner child, searched for the root cause and traumas of my childhood etc.
I'm still here, struggling. I had some good times, with abstinence, but nothing last long. I ruminate about what is missing.
A few thoughts I made:
I try to keep it as simple as possible:
I am 31 years old. I've been trying to quit PMO since my early twenties - almost ten years now - and tried nearly everything:
- 12-Step-Group (I have worked all the 12 Steps in almost two years and tried to find a higher power)
- I had a recovery coach
- I have completed an online program
- I downloaded apps, listened to podcasts, have read books, discovered my inner child, searched for the root cause and traumas of my childhood etc.
I'm still here, struggling. I had some good times, with abstinence, but nothing last long. I ruminate about what is missing.
A few thoughts I made:
- missing of absolute honesty - don't be the "nice guy" who hides relapses, setbacks and fellings
- no "effective" accountability
- don't enforce consequences
- not following a plan or a system in the long term and commit to it