I will not quit trying!!

At this current moment I'm too tired. I'm physically exhausted because I played sports after a long time. Stressed because got in an argument with a teen, said some things and now they might beat me. Stressed because exams are coming and haven't studied again even though doing extra semester for already failing. Upset at myself for the thing I've done today. Angry at myself for using my phone even when it's 1:00 at night and I was supposed to wake up at 4:45 in the morning. No idea what I'm doing on my phone, just numbing my thoughts. At moments like these porn become very alluring. But no! I will resist. I know things are not ideal atm, but this small step of not watching porn tonight will push me in the right direction. I'll make this post and try to sleep, because this 4 hour rest will be enough to get me going for gym tomorrow, then I'll sleep in tomorrow afternoon to cover my lost sleep time.
I feel proud for taking the right path tonight even when so much was going on in my head. Things aren't always as we want them to be, but I gotta remember the rules I set for myself in life, because they make me what i am. These principles I set for myself decide my personality, and what kind of person I am.
 
I wasn't even having intense urges. I was just bored, and having nothing else to do but phone in my hand, ended up doing it, well hopefully I'll do better next time.
Btw, I don't take these numbers seriously, I am doing much better not watching porn everyday for hours now. Goal is to be better in the long term, and I'm already getting better. Just need to make sure I am prepared if the similarity situation arrives. Leaning from my mistakes atleast.
 

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I wasn't even having intense urges. I was just bored, and having nothing else to do but phone in my hand, ended up doing it, well hopefully I'll do better next time.
Btw, I don't take these numbers seriously, I am doing much better not watching porn everyday for hours now. Goal is to be better in the long term, and I'm already getting better. Just need to make sure I am prepared if the similarity situation arrives. Leaning from my mistakes atleast.
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