2 days digital detox is over. I felt less urges in these 2 days, perhaps because I wasn't using my phone much, and I used my screens 'only' for studying. And well what I did in my free time? I slept. Lol, I slept so much these last 2 days. I'm gonna continue like this. I have a digital entertainment schedule that I'll follow if I want to have some digital entertainment to allow me to do things in moderation. And yes, staying away from my mindless internet consumption was a good idea. I am also monitoring the triggers that makes me want to watch porn. Biggest ones so far are:
1. When I have finished my studying sessions.
2. When I find myself alone in my room feeling lazy, but not wanting or unable to sleep.
But not having phone around me anymore have reduced the intensity of these urges significantly. Two days ago I was feeling scared of all the time I was spending with my thoughts all of sudden. I noticed that because all the content I was consuming was deciding my mood most of the time, when I took this random content away I found myself unable to decide how to feel. I had hard, and still have hard time being motivated to do things in the morning. The wisdom I have inside me seems hard to reach in the morning. All the good things I know, I forget in the morning, and earlier I used to try to remember all of that by going on internet, but these days I'm trying to remember the inner wisdom by being patient and trying to listen to what my heart is trying to say to me.
Also, inspired by what @FreedomFromTheStruggle_11
wrote about journaling daily about porn. By focusing on porn in any way, whether it's about knowing how many days has passed can lead me to watch it. That's why I will try to find new and different things to focus on, and will come here to update my progess weekly or with more time gaps. Anyways, I feel like this time I'm doing it right. Learning to be with myself and understanding myself is more difficult than quitting porn, and that's what I'm focusing on right now.