If you ejaculate without stimulation, see the journey!

QanWaz

Member
28th+29th+30th day NOPO(NoPorn) Review


1. Status

Nopo Done (NoPorn) and no scrolling.

2. Morning wood
Normal morning woods but NRBs are less frequent.

3. Libido & Urges
No serious urges for Porn anymore. My mind body and soul are preferring people over pixels i.e. real human contacts.

4. Depression & Motivation
I haven't been motivated in studies during these 3 days but strong in abstention due to my little results of progress. I'm not feeling the same chronic depression as was in addition days. Glad for this!

5. Self talk on urges
I'm saying to myself day by day that Porn wasn't something I wanted. It just came to surface out of boredom and curiousity. Connection with real people is actually the thing I want in my life. And folks please note it, this talk is not just a fancy dialogue script, it is my real raw feelings and the talk is genuine and real, that's when it transformed into unending drive and fuel!!!
So try to be honest with what you want and what's your purpose then remind yourself every single time when the urge pops up.

6. Obedience to Fast of social media and free Google
Yeah obeyed to the abstention of scrolling.

7. Entertainment
Just watched movies about WW2 these three days.

8. Insomnia
Slept and got up late but when got asleep it was deep and without walking up.

9. Dreams
Dreams are coming as usual.

10. Aftermath feeling
Feeling like seeing the light at the end of tunnel! Nothing can be more motivating than progress. So, I'm feeling like I to keep on trucking for more progress because it felt liberating!
 

QanWaz

Member
31st+32nd day NOPO(NoPorn) Review


1. Status

Nopo Done (NoPorn) but some scrolling.

2. Morning wood
Normal morning woods & NRBs.

3. Libido & Urges
I thought its normal now, but, last day I experienced some serious peaks in my urges and desires. Its there!

4. Depression & Motivation
Depression is under control. Although, I'm not liberated from worries but it is not that stringent as it was in days of addiction. Degree has decreased far far less.

5. Self talk on urges
Self talk now a days is just want to feel normal as I'm now without Porn anything related.
When urges surface, I remind myself that I made the commitment that I want to see the results of abstaining. The result after 30 days is wonderful and I don't want to sell it for something fake. I want to keep this self sovereignty intact. Although, I do aspire for real pious humam connection i.e. marriage for which I'll go at right time now.


6. Obedience to Fast of social media and free Google

Yeah did some scrolling but only on YouTube. Will stop that too.

7. Entertainment
Time with friend and listening to podcasts.

8. Insomnia
I'm shifting my schedule from 3 am for sleep to 11 am and wake up at 5am instead of 10am. I tried last night. Not fully succeeded but on track. Although, slept deep for good 7 hrs.

9. Dreams
Dreamt about my parents last night. They were preparing for virtuous journey and we were all happy.

10. Aftermath feeling
Want to keep on going for more days for more balanced and recovery.
 

QanWaz

Member
33rd+34th+35th day NOPO(NoPorn) Review


1. Status

Nopo Done (NoPorn) but some scrolling on social media.

2. Morning wood
Normal morning woods & instantaneous rises on mere touch.

3. Libido & Urges
Yeah libido and urges are peaking now a days. Urges for testing myself with social media stuff like watching beautiful girls. But I'm fighting.

4. Depression & Motivation
I'm not fully liberated from anxiety although I'm well out of deep depression. I'm staying calm and happy most of the time especially whem I accomplish my goals in studies. But, there is a serious doubt of not being able to reboot my mind from the damage of watching a girl and controlling my blast. I want to achieve it back worst than anything.

5. Self talk on urges
Today's self talk on urges for social media was real. When I got urge, coincidentally, I went to bathroom and I was alone with my internal voices. Weak voice was saying that let's try to watch some miner videos on YouTube of some girls. Thanks to my strong voice which started questioning to weak one like why do you want to see? Haven't you seen it before? Is there anything new? Or you're just kneeling to your urges because you're weak?
Then, I said it NO. I'm not going anywhere and this shit is just a thought not going to thrust me down from my track of total abstention.
And trust me , after that brief but robust raw self-talk, I immediately felt empowered and relieved. So, takeaway is stay present-minded and optimistic to the fact that you'll feel normal again after few moments which I did.


6. Obedience to Fast of social media and free Google
Yeah became somehow complacent to social media. Often forget when I turned on any app.

7. Entertainment
Time together with friends, jokes, laughs and snooker and cards.

8. Insomnia
I'm getting sleepy pretty often now a days, but, I'm struggling to shift my sleep time from late in the night to early. There was hardly 2 to 3 days when I didn't get sleep at night which I did catch at day time.

9. Dreams
I'm dreaming a lot, I mean, vivid dreams a lot. God! My teacher is angry with me in my dreams recurringly. IDK.

10. Aftermath feeling
I don't to want to watch Porn again yeah that's for sure. I'm glad for that. But, I'm still unable to get grasp over my non-stimulated ejaculation for which I'm a bit worried. Despite this, I've decided to continue my reboot because I'm hoping for the best as I'm doing the best!
 

QanWaz

Member
33rd+34th+35th day NOPO(NoPorn) Review


1. Status

Nopo Done (NoPorn) but some scrolling on social media.

2. Morning wood
Normal morning woods & instantaneous rises on mere touch.

3. Libido & Urges
Yeah libido and urges are peaking now a days. Urges for testing myself with social media stuff like watching beautiful girls. But I'm fighting.

4. Depression & Motivation
I'm not fully liberated from anxiety although I'm well out of deep depression. I'm staying calm and happy most of the time especially whem I accomplish my goals in studies. But, there is a serious doubt of not being able to reboot my mind from the damage of watching a girl and controlling my blast. I want to achieve it back worst than anything.

5. Self talk on urges
Today's self talk on urges for social media was real. When I got urge, coincidentally, I went to bathroom and I was alone with my internal voices. Weak voice was saying that let's try to watch some miner videos on YouTube of some girls. Thanks to my strong voice which started questioning to weak one like why do you want to see? Haven't you seen it before? Is there anything new? Or you're just kneeling to your urges because you're weak?
Then, I said it NO. I'm not going anywhere and this shit is just a thought not going to thrust me down from my track of total abstention.
And trust me , after that brief but robust raw self-talk, I immediately felt empowered and relieved. So, takeaway is stay present-minded and optimistic to the fact that you'll feel normal again after few moments which I did.


6. Obedience to Fast of social media and free Google
Yeah became somehow complacent to social media. Often forget when I turned on any app.

7. Entertainment
Time together with friends, jokes, laughs and snooker and cards.

8. Insomnia
I'm getting sleepy pretty often now a days, but, I'm struggling to shift my sleep time from late in the night to early. There was hardly 2 to 3 days when I didn't get sleep at night which I did catch at day time.

9. Dreams
I'm dreaming a lot, I mean, vivid dreams a lot. God! My teacher is angry with me in my dreams recurringly. IDK.

10. Aftermath feeling
I don't to want to watch Porn again yeah that's for sure. I'm glad for that. But, I'm still unable to get grasp over my non-stimulated ejaculation for which I'm a bit worried. Despite this, I've decided to continue my reboot because I'm hoping for the best as I'm doing the best!
Thanks @Blondie for support. Hope you read it.
 

QanWaz

Member
36th+37th+38th day NOPO(NoPorn) Review


1. Status

Nopo Done (NoPorn) and no aimless scrolling.

2. Morning wood
Morning woods ok and NRBs ok.

3. Libido & Urges
Have natural libido but no serious urges for Porn anymore. It has somehow revealed to me that real human experience is what I was seeking out and fulfilling with Porn as an alternative.

4. Depression & Motivation
I'm a bit worried about my non-stimulated ejaculation but nomore Porn-induced depression and feeling of lost. I'm way more present minded, focused and motivated. Top of all, thankfully, pleasure in all sorts of simple things has come back!

5. Self talk on urges
Self talk now-a-days is more focused on my present condition of Balance b/w pain and pleasure. Whenever, there is a negative thought, I say to myself that it is just a thought and you didn't love Porn. What you loved was real human interaction for which you're on path to achieve. So, practically, I change my state of being and my action which ultimately result in changing the negative thoughts loop.


6. Obedience to Fast of social media and free Google
Yeah no more perpetuate and silly scrolling.

7. Entertainment
Listened to the podcast of Gabor Mate on Rich Roll. Loved that!

8. Insomnia
My sleep quality is much better than before. I'm just having problem with the schedule. I get asleep late and got up late. I'm trying to shift it to early as it was before addiction.

9. Dreams
Wet dream on 35th day. Dreaming vivid and impactful dreams on regular basis.

10. Aftermath feeling
Although I'm along the way and not fully recovered, but somehow, I'm feeling peace in majority of days for which I'm profoundly and humbly grateful to Almighty God!
 

QanWaz

Member
39th+40th+41st day NOPO(NoPorn) Review


1. Status

Nopo Done (NoPorn) and no aimless scrolling.

2. Morning wood
Morning woods ok and NRBs ok.

3. Libido & Urges
Almost flatline

4. Depression & Motivation
Worried about my studies and career but that's not depression to me.

5. Self talk on urges
Now self talk is simple. I say to myself that this is normal condition which I wanted and the negative thoughts are also normal. So, I don't stuck on them and let them come and go.
Yeah, there's not much drive for studies. I think I need to push myself now.

6. Obedience to Fast of social media and free Google
Stayed on track of not scrolling.

7. Entertainment
My body is saying to me that I need outdoor physical activity which I'm not getting. I'm missing it as I'm in hostel away from home.

8. Insomnia
8 hrs sleep is regular now. Less than that hurts me shockingly bcz it wasn't before addiction.

9. Dreams
Yeah vivid and profound dreams. I even able to recall them.

10. Aftermath feeling
I'm grateful for coming from tunnels of darkness to be able to see this light of little improvement. Although, I want more, but, I'm not feeling sad.
 

QanWaz

Member
42nd+43rd day NOPO(NoPorn) Review


1. Status

Nopo Done (NoPorn). Yeah a lot scrolling on YouTube today. Would keep it check.

2. Morning wood
Morning woods & NRBs ok.

3. Libido & Urges
Libido and urges surface for time to time. Its normal. Urges aren't that much stronger or maybe my mind has been recovered somehow IDK.
Today again I checked myself by starring at two girls on campus which almost brought the same orgasmic feeling in my legs. Then, I starred away lest I would edge close. Don't know when I'll get rid of it.💔

4. Depression & Motivation
Depression was disappeared and motivation was good.

5. Self talk on urges
I take urges as natural process now and don't give long thoughts to it. I keep on myself busy or in action. Moods follow actions.

6. Obedience to Fast of social media and free Google
No, I didn't stick to it today. Need to pay heed to it.

7. Entertainment
My entertainment is totally absent as I came here in hostel for university.

8. Insomnia
Thankfully, I get sleepy easily now. Can't be more grateful for that!

9. Dreams
Regular dreams.

10. Aftermath feeling
I don't say that I'm at high but I'm satisfied somehow bcz where I came from and where I'm now is heck of a progress. Appreciate myself!
 

QanWaz

Member
44th+45th day NOPO(NoPorn) Review


1. Status

Nopo Done (NoPorn). No scrolling on social media also.

2. Morning wood
Morning woods & NRBs are normal.

3. Libido & Urges
Yeah strong feelings not for Porn but for real life connection. I'm delaying it on purpose.


4. Depression & Derive
No depression at all AH and true drive for work and study.

5. Self talk on urges
Now self talk is not rough. I just say to myself that the negative thoughts are normal and my body without acting on those feelings is what I was before addiction that is "Normal". I want to stay here bcz I know what's on the other end if I act on it.

6. Obedience to Fast of social media and free Google
Yeah total control. Infact, I listened a full podcast on Rich Roll about social media by Max Fisher. Learnt a lot!!!

7. Entertainment
My body is demanding physical entertainment like sports or gym. But, I'm here in hostel, away from home. So, can't do it despite having negative toll on me.

8. Insomnia
I can't be more happy for my sleep recovery. After almost two months, I can sleep within mints on routine. Also successfully shifted my schedule. Feeling grateful for that!!

9. Dreams
Regular dreams. In last night's dream, one of my best friends came to my house. Met her physically. Had chat with her. Felt amazing afterwards!!!

10. Aftermath feeling
Although I'm far far away from my full recovery, but, the feeling I have while writing this down is far more than happiness. It is pure gratefulness. This makes me stick for more progress. Will do it IA!!!
 

QanWaz

Member
46th-55th day NOPO(NoPorn) Review

1. Status
It's been a while I put a post here bcz I was lazy about it. Btw...
Nopo Done (NoPorn). Some extend of scrolling on social media.

2. Morning wood
Morning woods & NRBs are normal.

3. Libido & Urges
Yeah strong feelings/desires for real life connection which I don't have right now. Also get some urges for tempting videos of girls but I can say with confidence that I'm not driven towards porn now. Thankfully!

4. Depression & Derive
No depression. Not atleast of that kind that was in addiction days.

5. Self talk on urges
Still now whenever I get urges for videos of girls on YouTube, I remind myself that I'm not fully recovered and I don't need to experiment my progress.


6. Obedience to Fast of social media and free Google
Yes I'm off from mainstream social media except YouTube which I only use for professional purposes deliberately although there are a lot of opportunities for my drug of choice.

7. Entertainment
I'm missing my entertainment i.e. interaction with friends and doing gym with them.

8. Insomnia
I'm not perfectly recovered but somehow my sleep is getting better and better both in quantity and quality.

9. Dreams
Dreams are regular. Dreams that I do remember in the morning.

10. Aftermath feeling
I'm happy for my recovery still so far but my mind is saying to me that there's a lot of work more to do bcz I still get those orgasmic feeling while starring a beautiful girl for quite a time. I has got better as it was quick whenever I took a simple glance of specific body parts. So, much better than before and I want more!!
 

QanWaz

Member
56th-62nd day NOPO(NoPorn) Review

1. Status
Nopo Done (NoPorn)

2. Morning wood
Morning woods & NRBs are less frequent.

3. Libido & Urges
Feelings are strong now-a-days.

4. Depression & Derive
No depression due to Porn.

5. Self talk on urges
Urges are part of me. I don't need to focus and let it pass which passes after a while.


6. Obedience to Fast of social media and free Google
I'm not that big on social media but yeah still I'm somehow exposed to the hooks on YouTube.

7. Entertainment
No sort of entertainment. I really felt need for physical activity.

8. Insomnia
Still takes me good 30-35 mints to fall asleep.

9. Dreams
Dreams are normal.

10. Aftermath feeling
I'm still going but I still feel doubt, not about whether I'll be able to conquer addiction or not. No absolutely not!! I'm confident that I can defeat addiction. What bothers me the most is the thought that Will I be able to make connection with real life person or not.
 
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