Hey, just a quick - more so than an update - just a bit of writing which can be nice.
Had some urges the last few days. Last night fantasy was popping into my head. A good response to this is, rather then letting it build. To have a plan to keep it from happening tonight - the plan is a simple one. I have a kindle, I can read in bed with the light off until I literally fall asleep and drop the kindle. That is one thing great about the kindle, it does not require light to be read AND it will shut itself off automatically.
Writing now, is reminding me how helpful typing in a journal can be. I type a lot faster than I write, so it is nice to just sort of get some thoughts out quickly in this way.
Today, I felt I was going to be pressed for time ( honestly I was in efficient early in the day) so I modified my workout and did one at home rather then the gym. It was "pull" day ( push,pull,legs works well for me). So I just did sets up chin ups, some sets of band pull aparts and some sets of band curls. So I hit all the muscles I wanted to hit. Upper back and rear delts with pull aparts - I changed the angle of pull aparts to hit the lower traps. The chin ups hit the biceps hard and the lats. Finally the curls hit the biceps some more.
Writing about this motivates me. I'd like to grow my biceps. It may not be considered the most "functional" thing - but hey - I really like seeing my arms grow and would like the way it looks! It motivates me so why not do it.
I was really irritable and angry yesterday and the day before - but I went to a hot yoga class and my goodness - the release of anger and tension was incredible.
I don't know why I move away from yoga at times. For me there is no question the proper path forward for me is lifting + yoga ( can always do bike rides from time to time for extra cardio/fun or walk on incline treadmill while reading or something).
Simple lifting and yoga have the best effect on me by far.
Yoga is an interesting one - because honestly, of all the workouts I have done it is one that I often do not "feel like" doing - but it gives me the absolute best mood boost and feelings afterward. Yesterday I felt so good after that I actually can't wait to do it again. It was hot candle lit yoga and that made it a game changer, being in the dark in the warm room, closing my eyes focusing on breath was just exquisite.
For me though, yoga can bother my back, the forward bending or stretching too far. But there is a simple solution MODIFY. If I put blocks on the ground on the highest setting and rest my hands during forward bending, my back feels fine, and then simply my body does not like to be pushed when stretching. If I do these two things, not push too hard and modify, then I think yoga is healthy for my body - and for my mind it is excellent.
Anyway, looking forward to more yoga. I also think as I get a bit fitter and more flexible ( without going too far) it can become a more intense workout and help me with weight loss.
Hmm, what else? Honestly it felt good to just review and get thoughts out, so I needn't write every single thing going on.
I do think thought, I want to spend more time writing out what motivates me and having specific goals. I think I'll make that a priority for tomorrow.