This little devil is getting back on me

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BrunoOliveira

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It's sad to see people fooling themselves about the addiction. They don't know yet that it's an addiction, and will probably have to get through something bad t realize it. When it happens, they will envy you so much because you don't do these things.

Congratulations on the victory yesterday!
Keep doing like this. Remember that there is nothing good in pmo, you don't need it. It's something ridiculous and you're so much better without it. Things are real. Enjoy being real and keeping free.

If you have this in your heart and keep calm, the urges won't control you and will fade away.
 
Wolfmother

Wolfmother

Member
ANOTHER DAY WITH VERY STRONG URGES

Today the urges were super strong, I thought I almost gave into it.

But I didn't, it was really hard, but I didn't.

Gonna go for a walk now and meet my friends.

Take care everyone.
 
sho0fl

sho0fl

Active Member
Stay strong man. Remove all ways that you can get trapped again.

Shut off the phone's internet and move it away. Shut off the computer and just chill. Any other device as well.
 
Wolfmother

Wolfmother

Member
DAY IDK WHICH ONE IT IS

Today was good, no urges.

It was raining all the time. Studied, and then met one of my friends. Good day
 
Wolfmother

Wolfmother

Member
ANOTHER DAY

Nothing special going on, no peeking.
I'm happy and very chill, I feel good.


Studied a little, couldn't go out cause it was raining all day, reading EasyPeasy.

Peace
 
Wolfmother

Wolfmother

Member
A nice day

Usual day, saw my friends, chilled around for a while, did nothing else tbh.


Reading EasyPeasy, really glad that I do. Very insightful.

Thanks to BrunoOliveira and sho0fl for the recommendation!
 
sho0fl

sho0fl

Active Member
Good job man, I hope that it's useful. There's a saying:
Don't just tell me what you've read, show me what you've learn and what thoughts were inspired in you
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What are the most important takeaways from the book for you?
 
Wolfmother

Wolfmother

Member
sho0fl said:
Good job man, I hope that it's useful. There's a saying:

What are the most important takeaways from the book for you?
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I've only finished chapter 7, so one of my favorites till now is;

Porn doesn’t fill a void, it creates one.

It makes alot of sense, obv.

And also about how stress & boredom makes us want to have a little peek, felt that was very true and happened to me.

Most of the time, even the past few days, when I had those urges to peek at something, it was because I was either very bored with nothing to do or in a situation where I couldn't do much, or I was stressed about something.

And the first thing that came to my mind was to look at some form of pornography to take the edge off.

It's really crazy that it's almost my default setting to check out some 2D pixels on a screen when I'm stressed or bored, but not anymore.
 
sho0fl

sho0fl

Active Member
The most useful realization was that this addiction is what your brain is used to. It might feel natural, but once you know what it is, it is easier to understand yourself and beat it.
 
Wolfmother

Wolfmother

Member
sho0fl said:
The most useful realization was that this addiction is what your brain is used to. It might feel natural, but once you know what it is, it is easier to understand yourself and beat it.
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Exactly, you can't beat something that you aren't aware of.
 
Wolfmother

Wolfmother

Member
DAYS THAT I'VE FORGOT TO COUNT

So today was a normal day, I met my friends,I went out, went to the beach, got back. No urges nothing, all good.

AND THAT'S WHEN IT HAPPENED

So I was checking out my Instagram and this girl whom I used to know well from University texted me.

She's one of those social media influencers and we knew each other well a while ago.

But that wasn't the problem.

The problem was that, this girl, whom I didn't care/worry about at all, right after she texted me, I started getting super anxious waiting for her replies.

I kept refreshing my account to see if she had texted and it was like I was out of reality and the only thing that mattered to me was that girl's text.

A girl. Whom I haven't talked to in ages and never think of. She texts me and get all anxious and crazy waiting for her replies.

It made me feel really bad about myself. Bad as in, I stopped caring or thinking about what was going on the in the present/reality just waiting for her text.

I felt like that wasn't me, or that shouldn't be me. I was so worried and conscious about the texts I probably texted her a few times after that too.

It really was unnecessary and I don't know why I felt like that.

It wasn't just her. Another girl that I used to see, we're still good now, texted me as well.


The same thing happened w her. Constantly checking for her texts and waiting for the replies.


I feel like that wasn't right. I felt like I wasn't in the present and I was worrying over things that didn't matter.

Something that I feel I need to improve.
 
Wolfmother

Wolfmother

Member
Another thing I'd like to add;


What most people have told me is that they really liked me cause my opinions were always honest and I never pretended to be someone that I wasn't.

I always stayed true to myself and never really cared too much about other people's opinion.

It's not that everyone else liked it, I liked being that way. That was me.


Rn it feels like that person is long gone.

Just anxious and worried and comparing all the time now.

I'll get better, I'll be back.
 
Wolfmother

Wolfmother

Member
How are you all? Checked out Playboys the last 3 days, relapsed.

Realised I have to get rid of this addiction even more now. Felt like shit after that.


That's it, I'm done with this. No counting days, this is in the past forever. I'm kicking this addiction out.

Over and out
 
sho0fl

sho0fl

Active Member
Hey man,

I think that you're doing great progress-wise, I'm not just saying this. You've been updating this regularly in the past month and also interacted with a couple of people here. The idea is so that it helps you, hopefully we have been helpful!

I'd recommend that you turn to the positives instead of the negatives, that made you feel like shit. Try to identify why you felt like shit. What thoughts are there. Then try to change those thoughts, gradually, with positive thinking. Look at your achievements, even being a week clean is an achievement (I really do think this). How are you doing in other areas and so on.

Keep your head up, don't let negative thoughts lower it. You're on the road and fighting the fight. You should not think that the fight is linear and you start today, you will not have any issues down the road.

It's your life, it's not day X of being this or that. Cheers man
 
Wolfmother

Wolfmother

Member
sho0fl said:
Hey man,

I think that you're doing great progress-wise, I'm not just saying this. You've been updating this regularly in the past month and also interacted with a couple of people here. The idea is so that it helps you, hopefully we have been helpful!

I'd recommend that you turn to the positives instead of the negatives, that made you feel like shit. Try to identify why you felt like shit. What thoughts are there. Then try to change those thoughts, gradually, with positive thinking. Look at your achievements, even being a week clean is an achievement (I really do think this). How are you doing in other areas and so on.

Keep your head up, don't let negative thoughts lower it. You're on the road and fighting the fight. You should not think that the fight is linear and you start today, you will not have any issues down the road.

It's your life, it's not day X of being this or that. Cheers man
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Thanks man! Really appreciate it.

Yes, this forum has helped me alot, hopefully everyone else too.


Yeah I'm pretty chill about it now, a small bump on the road, nothing else.

Hope you're doing good to man, cheers!
 
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