For some reason that I can't find right now, I've never been able to tell anybody about my porn problem, even drunk (which when I was drunk, I told my parents everything minus the porn addiction).Hey sorry to see that you have been struggling recently. I have been struggling myself again for about 6 months maybe a bit more.
Have you got a regular pattern in your using? Have you tried reaching out to people in the "real" not online world for help?
For years I was similar in that regard. I found that having people around you in the "real" offline world that know of our stuggles helps for accountability. It doesn't fix the problem but when they know things are up they can rally round you.For some reason that I can't find right now, I've never been able to tell anybody about my porn problem, even drunk (which when I was drunk, I told my parents everything minus the porn addiction).
Find some time to reflect and be compassionate to yourself. Maybe try really breaking down what's been going on in these last few days? Maybe do a mind map of what's going on?I want to say this is day 1 but I relapsed after midnight being drunk. 4 PMOs in the last 3 days in a row, out of control.
I am sorry it is feeling like that right now. Remember you are NOT alone and you have people cheering you on.Since I got out of control with this PMO shit, I've felt exactly lethargic, tired, no motivation to do anything. I'm barely going through the motion of a pathetic excuse of life attempt these days. What's painful is that I know all this yet I haven't been able to get out.