Escape and never come back

Escapeandnevercomeback

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Day 2

The way rebooting works for me, in order to get a longer streak it seems that I need certain circumstances to be in place. And I need to take all the right steps. As soon as I take a wrong step, everything crumbles like a castle made of cards. And then I can even end up completely burying myself with PMO used as a shovel. It takes me a long time to be able to replicate a good streak. I wish I wasn't an alcohol addict as well. A lot of those wrong steps meant getting drunk and binging PMO with no care. I'm struggling to get back the momentum while I'm feeling lethargic and tired.
 

Escapeandnevercomeback

Respected Member
13 PMOs in 12 days. 14 days left of this month. Last month I had 23 PMOs. What goes through my head is: "Can you have less PMOs this month?" But it's very difficult to see it happening. I have the same drinking routine, which most of the time, actually every fuckin time for quite a while, has led to PMO binges. I feel so fuckin bad, so low, so depressed, I can't even see the end.
 
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