Yo man. Drinking for 25 years you definitely know what's this all about. I've been drinking for about 15? The thing is, I would've been a way different kind of alcoholic had it not been for the circumstance of living with my parents. Because of this, I've been drinking less that I would've ended up doing. But, to try to answer a little bit your question, I am the kind that, if I have alcohol, I can't wait to start, I would start right in the morning, no eating, and get fucked up. But I've never done it before work though. But if I have a free day, I start right from the morning. I can drink after work, get drunk, stay up late, rage, wake up in the morning feeling like shit etc. The hangovers are fuckin killing me. Thanks for stopping by.So, are you a day drinker? Are you the "get started in the morning and keep it going all day" type of guy? Or maybe you just drink in the evenings, but you get trashed?
Just curious, no judgement here. I was an alcoholic for over 25 years, so don't feel like I'm talking shit, because I'm not. I used to drink in the mornings, and work drunk all day, then go home and get SMASHED. Every night. Tequila was my preferred sauce, with a lot of craft beer on the side. I don't really miss it, honestly.
You seem like you want to talk about alcohol, so let's talk about it. What kind of drinker are you?
Well, you know, giving the fact that my porn use is worse than last year, I don't really have what more to talk about it without repeating myself. I don't have any progress to declare.You seem like you want to talk about alcohol, so let's talk about it. What kind of drinker are you?
Yeah man, you got the disease, for sure. I've been where you are. And yes, you are dealing with two things right now. Nobody does well fighting two opponents at the same time -- pick the one you want to tackle first, then go from there. One thing at a time.Well, you know, giving the fact that my porn use is worse than last year, I don't really have what more to talk about it without repeating myself. I don't have any progress to declare.
And then I realized that the alcohol problem has been sneaking on me really well lately. I cleaned my room and gathered all the bottles. In between bottles of wine, a couple of bottles of beer, I have a bottle of gin, a bottle of cognac and a bottle of vodka. I finished all of them in a few days, as I'm on vacation from work. And I realized that my craving for alcohol has gone up. When I took the cork out of the bottle of wine and drank like water in the desert, I knew I really had a problem. You know very well what I'm talking about. It definitely sucks to realize I'm dealing with two things now.
Hey man!Do you smoke? Do you use marijuana? Have you ever had a full psychiatric evaluation?
The reason I ask is because I recently found out I am bipolar. Now that I know this, things are actually easier to deal with. I finally understand my mood swings, and why they happen. If I had known this 10 years ago, it would have been a lot easier to stop drinking. I have found that the more we know ourselves, the more we can work with ourselves and not against ourselves. The problem with drinking is that it blocked me from myself, so I never got to know the guy on the inside. I've had to make up for lost time so I can get to know him. Not really easy at 40, but it's possible.
I wish I had more constructive things to say. I fear this is not really helpful. But then, I'm not trying to help as much as just have a conversation. I like that you talk about things other than porn, and talk about your trauma, and you bring something new to the table. I wish more people were able to be as brutally honest as you are, and I always read what you post. I have trauma too, a lot of it. It sucks. Therapy helps. We are on the same path, you and I. Maybe at different points on the path, but the still the same one.