Escape and never come back

Escapeandnevercomeback

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Yes, it's true, you have 2 sufferings to choose from:

1) The suffering of being an addict.
2) The suffering of withdrawal (until they go away).

Which one is the best?

I think it's pretty clear. We will have to suffer anyway but at least suffer well. Option 1 means you suffer in vain, without anything good coming out of it. Option 2 means your suffering is finite, you will suffer up to a point, for a good reason and escape. Nobody escapes porn addiction easily, a level of suffering will happen but at least we need to suffer smart.
 

Escapeandnevercomeback

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I was checking my records. From October 7 until today (2 weeks), I've PMOed 16 times. It's ridiculous. And before that I had a 25 days streak. That's what I've been doing for the past couple of years: Have longer streaks once in a while (maybe only when everything is in the right place) but I am not able to achieve them consistently.
 
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Escapeandnevercomeback

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Things would be a lot easier if the only thing I had to deal with was the missing of pleasure. What I crave is actually the escape, not porn per se. Porn just happened to be one of the things I started to use for this. When I stay away from porn, and alcohol too, I have to deal with all the pain that falls on me. This is the difficult part.
 

Escapeandnevercomeback

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Day 0

PMO x 1


Probably more to come.

I woke up, started edging to flashbacks then I moved to instagram, salivating at girls that don't even know I exist. I know I don't have the tools right now to stay completely away from this shit but I still feel the repercussions of PMO, no matter how you look at it.
 

Escapeandnevercomeback

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Day 4

Alright, I begin a new month with a somehow streak. I don't know if I can finish it with zero PMOs but at least I want to stop binging. If I can't stop relapsing, I desperately need, for the quality of my life these days, to stop having more than 1 PMO when I relapse. I can't tolerate anymore binges. They're fuckin killing me.
 
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