It was years that I try to leave this trap, I don't exceed 20 days every time before I relapse again, it's really a damned trap and I'm fed up, but is there any another option? Absolutely not, even if I want to give up and just let myself drown forever, I can't because of the bad feelings and a state of mind that is close to madness, after one day of porn, if I let myself going for long period it will be certainly and literally "Hell".
The only option possible is to get up and start walking again, today is my first reboot day, I relapsed yesterday after 16 days of nofap. I keep hoping and saying the famous phrase : "I swear, this will be the last time I do this" looks like Sisyphus trying to put the rock on the peak of the mountain, but the rock continues to fall every time and forever
Today is my day 1, I decided to write a post everyday during this 9O days challenge, it will be a reminder to me and perhaps a support of the people who read this and who feel the same malaise and who lead the same fight, every day. Keep Going bro, one day we will succeed.
