johannson
Member
hi, I am 32 years old and I try to quit this addiction since a year now.
With 14 years I started edging to P dayli. I was always a pessimistic person, with lack of motivation and over time my depression got worse,
but as many guys i was not thinking that P would be the problem. I saw it as a stress relief to calm down.
After a 10 year relationship, which ended for 2 years the things got worse and finally i damaged my brain so much that i got pied.
The year 2021 ended and I was not able to obstain (HM) over ~50days befor i relapsed.
At the beginning of 2022 I started again, by visiting a online course which lead me to a streak of 138days.
But after a relapse to MO i slipped back into the P-circle.
I have various answers for this:
End of meetings:
In the course I was able to have weekly sessions with a coach and that was really benificial to talk one on one with a person who has struggled
from the same problem. He was able to lead me in the right direction when i was leaving the path. I want to reach out to this meetings again.
I isolated myself
This is a big problem since covid. I stopped drinking(for a year) and smoking, but in my country everyone is drinking alcohol and so I did my whole life.
It f**** me up that i am not able to go out and have fun without drinking. The most time u have to explain and answer why and after that you get some
stupid comments. I am looking farward to 2023, i will drink again but more moderate than in the past.
Acc-partners/ friends
As i wrote in acc-thread, the partners I had went back to P ("from time to time") or P-subs. I dont know if i was jalouse of them because they can move on with P and i can not, but i stopped talking to them.
I told two of my best friends of my problem and they dont believe that P can limp my dick. They think that performance anxiety is the problem. I can count the women i slept with on one hand, but i had never a problem to get an errection back in the days.
Lack of love/ Loneliness
This is for sure the biggest trigger i have. Since i found out about pied, i got some serious anxity by approaching women.
This has led to the fact, that i havent touched a women the hole year. Every time I see a beautiful women i get the feeling that i am not enough for her.
I know that sex is not everything in a relationship, but i am so afraid of rejection. So the most time I avoided going out and stayed at home.
And thats courious because in the past I had low self-esteem because of my body. Now i have 8% bodyfat and I am anxious because of P.
I will quit this addiction, I know how good it felt when I reached past 100 days and I dont want to be an addicted loser for my son.
sry for my english- i try do improve it
thats it for Day 2
With 14 years I started edging to P dayli. I was always a pessimistic person, with lack of motivation and over time my depression got worse,
but as many guys i was not thinking that P would be the problem. I saw it as a stress relief to calm down.
After a 10 year relationship, which ended for 2 years the things got worse and finally i damaged my brain so much that i got pied.
The year 2021 ended and I was not able to obstain (HM) over ~50days befor i relapsed.
At the beginning of 2022 I started again, by visiting a online course which lead me to a streak of 138days.
But after a relapse to MO i slipped back into the P-circle.
I have various answers for this:
End of meetings:
In the course I was able to have weekly sessions with a coach and that was really benificial to talk one on one with a person who has struggled
from the same problem. He was able to lead me in the right direction when i was leaving the path. I want to reach out to this meetings again.
I isolated myself
This is a big problem since covid. I stopped drinking(for a year) and smoking, but in my country everyone is drinking alcohol and so I did my whole life.
It f**** me up that i am not able to go out and have fun without drinking. The most time u have to explain and answer why and after that you get some
stupid comments. I am looking farward to 2023, i will drink again but more moderate than in the past.
Acc-partners/ friends
As i wrote in acc-thread, the partners I had went back to P ("from time to time") or P-subs. I dont know if i was jalouse of them because they can move on with P and i can not, but i stopped talking to them.
I told two of my best friends of my problem and they dont believe that P can limp my dick. They think that performance anxiety is the problem. I can count the women i slept with on one hand, but i had never a problem to get an errection back in the days.
Lack of love/ Loneliness
This is for sure the biggest trigger i have. Since i found out about pied, i got some serious anxity by approaching women.
This has led to the fact, that i havent touched a women the hole year. Every time I see a beautiful women i get the feeling that i am not enough for her.
I know that sex is not everything in a relationship, but i am so afraid of rejection. So the most time I avoided going out and stayed at home.
And thats courious because in the past I had low self-esteem because of my body. Now i have 8% bodyfat and I am anxious because of P.
I will quit this addiction, I know how good it felt when I reached past 100 days and I dont want to be an addicted loser for my son.
sry for my english- i try do improve it
thats it for Day 2
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