worth_it
Active Member
Hi everyone, a year ago or so I was very active on here, then I felt like it wasn't really helping me at a certain point. Since then, I have set out on a journey of healing, lots of therapy, group counseling, and much more recovery community in my life, and I praise God for that. I relapsed this morning and I am experiencing a lot of hope right now (classic post-relapse feeling, I know, but this time feels pretty different so I'll go with it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯). So here's the deal. Why am I posting here? Did it even help my recovery to post in the past?
To answer both of those questions, I will say that I experienced the most sobriety from PMO that I have ever experienced using the journal on this website. After thinking about it a bit, I think I realize having a place to journal my thoughts relating to recovery really helps me feel organized and not too overwhelmed (feeling overwhelmed is a huge precursor to me relapsing). So from here on out, I'm going to journal my daily (or every other day) progress. I'm committing to not going more than 2 days without posting, will post about how my day went and celebrate cool things that happened, as well as talk about challenges that came up.
Today is day 0. The morning started off well, but I've been feeling super overwhelmed recently and I truly think it has to do with a sort of untrue belief about myself, which is that I can't handle life's challenges more than a week or two without using PMO. I want to see that belief change, and I think posting on here will play a huge role in that! Here we go guys, I'm ready to see real victory.
To answer both of those questions, I will say that I experienced the most sobriety from PMO that I have ever experienced using the journal on this website. After thinking about it a bit, I think I realize having a place to journal my thoughts relating to recovery really helps me feel organized and not too overwhelmed (feeling overwhelmed is a huge precursor to me relapsing). So from here on out, I'm going to journal my daily (or every other day) progress. I'm committing to not going more than 2 days without posting, will post about how my day went and celebrate cool things that happened, as well as talk about challenges that came up.
Today is day 0. The morning started off well, but I've been feeling super overwhelmed recently and I truly think it has to do with a sort of untrue belief about myself, which is that I can't handle life's challenges more than a week or two without using PMO. I want to see that belief change, and I think posting on here will play a huge role in that! Here we go guys, I'm ready to see real victory.