My Journey To Freedom!

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5yrs_is_enough

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Hey there! Turning 20 soon, and I’ve promised myself not to waste my 20’s doing things I always regret and make me hate myself. I’ve been fapping since i was like 13 years old, and I’ll blame this entirely on Porn and myself. Even though I’ve been suffering from ED about 3-4years now but i still couldn’t stop myself. But enough is enough, I’m ready to face that urge this time with every bit of motivation left in me. I’ll be posting my progress every single day in the comments, Hopefully the ED should go away as i progress, Stay Strong Guys!!!
 
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Day 2: Woke up late, Spent most of the day watching STRANGER THINGS, watch it if you haven’t its worth it I promise. Had this injury i got from playing football yesterday which gave me a fever near sunset. Slept woke up and had a cold shower. 0 urges, 0 thoughts, still in a flatline. #StayingStrong
 
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Daybyday1988

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thats great buddy keep on going. i find the first few days away are pretty good because the cravings arent as strong. flets say I pmo'd on monday, i wont feel any urges for at least 5-7 days. this is where journaling is a good thing because it can make you more aware of the intervals of cravings you have and you can prepare mentally for it.
 
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5yrs_is_enough

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Yes it’s So true! In my last five attempts to quit I relapsed between day 5-7, that’s when the craving and urge comes for me. But I’m not planning on giving into it this time, I’ll fight it! Thanks for the support I really appreciate.
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thats great buddy keep on going. i find the first few days away are pretty good because the cravings arent as strong. flets say I pmo'd on monday, i wont feel any urges for at least 5-7 days. this is where journaling is a good thing because it can make you more aware of the intervals of cravings you have and you can prepare mentally for it
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Day 3: Morning was normal as usual, tired and lazy to get out if bed. In the Afternoon i went to a nearby gaming centre and had a real good time. Later in the night went to a local cinema to Support Bayern Munich as we beat Inter(ready for Barca next week). I learnt that staying in doors too much contribute to my relapses so I spent most of the time outdoors. 0 urges, 0 thoughts, still in a flatline while staying strong.
 
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FreedomFromTheStruggle_11

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5yrs_is_enough said:
Day 3: Morning was normal as usual, tired and lazy to get out if bed. In the Afternoon i went to a nearby gaming centre and had a real good time. Later in the night went to a local cinema to Support Bayern Munich as we beat Inter(ready for Barca next week). I learnt that staying in doors too much contribute to my relapses so I spent most of the time outdoors. 0 urges, 0 thoughts, still in a flatline while staying strong.
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Keep going man!!! You're doing awesome!!
 
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Day 4: Alright guys today I discovered something very important and want to share with you. Today in the morning I woke up not in the best of moods (depressed), I started having thoughts(wasn’t viewing or listening to anything that could cause such) you know, slowly and eventually they started to grow but before it took control of me I just saw a CREDIT alert notification on my phone and suddenly I was happy and excited, the Bad mood was gone and those thoughts just fade away like they never happened. What I’m trying to say is staying DEPRESSED while rebooting will just make it harder to fight an urge which could lead to a relapse. I’ll try as much to be active and spend lot’s of time outdoors this coming days because i know these are the first phases of urges and I’ll fight through them. 0 urges, 1 thoughts(fought it quickly before it triggered an urge), in a flatline, staying strong.
 
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Day 5: Today was a happy day for me, my Mood was high and I found intrest in almost anything i came across. I got my Music taste back by enjoying some of my old playlists. Day 5 wasn’t as challenging as I taught it would be as I mostly relapse at this point in my previous attempts. 2 days and Ive complete my first week (HARD MODE of course). 0 urges, 0 thoughts, in a flatline, staying strong.
 
Chuckles

Chuckles

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Keep it up!
My advice, take it or leave it, make sure you have a game plan, and something you've committed to. Build up your resolve now, imagine it like a willpower bank you will have to withdraw from later.

Good luck! You got this!
 
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Chuckles said:
Keep it up!
My advice, take it or leave it, make sure you have a game plan, and something you've committed to. Build up your resolve now, imagine it like a willpower bank you will have to withdraw from later.

Good luck! You got this!
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Thank you! My ears are open to all advice, yes I do have like you said.
 
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Day 6: Today was a good day, spent most of the time hanging out with my friends. I was feeling more positive and confident. Later in the day I spent my time on this forum reading other users stories, it sad to see how so many people are struggling with this addiction, but am also happy to see all of us here as being here alone means we’re willing to fight it. 0 urges few thoughts, in a flatline (though i had series of erections throughout today), Staying Strong. Eying the One week Medal💪🏽
 
Daybyday1988

Daybyday1988

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Today in the morning I woke up not in the best of moods (depressed),
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This brings up something i read awhile back i think on pmoflatline.com
There was an article about a study where moderate exercise increased dopamine receptor density several times over as compared to those who did not. The 8 week study was done on people recovering from meth addiction
 
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5yrs_is_enough

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Day 7: Can’t believe it’s already a week since I started this thread. I promised myself to do as much as possible not report a relapse, i was enslaved over 7 years by porn and masturbation so a week free is nothing to celebrate. Today has been a good day, a rainy one, enjoying song as am typing this had 0 urges but the thoughts are still there because you just can’t stop yourself from having them. Planning on never watching Porn and Masturbating ever, this is My Journey as it continues!
 
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Day 8: In my many attempts for the first time in 3 years I’ve gotten past the 7 day mark clean i.e NO PORN, NO MASTURBATION, NO ORGASM, NO PEAKING, I’m a week and a day clean. And the good news is the urge to relapse just isn’t there surprisingly. I haven’t set a target number of days as i plan for the streak to last forever(until the day i lost track of counting). Today i have series of erections, I’m starting to think I’m getting out of the flatline, 0 urges but the thoughts are still there, staying strong.
 
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