I wonder if they really expect you to finish it. Perhaps they want to see how you handle the stress of work that is literally overwhelming.DAY 1
Im going to work very hard today to reach the deadline of my project. I refuse to fall back into pmo and face life as it is, instead of trying to numb it.
Will not fall back today
Thanks a lot for checking in with me man! I wanna congradulate you on reaching so many days on your streak!!! Its insane.Hey, how's it going?
Thinking about you brother.
Sorry to hear about the relapse but glad to see you back here. Even when you feel shame because of what you've been doing, I recommend that you come to this forum and post about what happened.Thanks a lot for checking in with me man! I wanna congradulate you on reaching so many days on your streak!!! Its insane.
I reached 11 days today but then i relapsed god damnit. But im getting back at it.. Also this past week ive been on a disociating streak, drinking and smoking weed a lot... Barely did any workouts too, so no wonder i relapsed.. sometimes i feel like i can't deal with the feelings that come up and i feel exhausted. and i just run away every time... Cause deep down i feel lonely af. But i know i need to face these feelings in order to surpass this state tho. Ive been wanting to write more here on the forum but i was ashamed cause i was high almost every day. I was also ruminating about my ex a lot.. but now im back and im going to give it another try. It seems that when i try to stop one vice, i want to compensate with the other vices to fill up that void.
Also i am invited for an interview at this company i made the assignment for. I am excited about that but also scared and that made me go all in these days into these sedating habits.
Thanks man! It really means a lot!! And i agree, negative emotions shouldn't be seen as bad. I think I'm always abandoning myself when i feel those bad emotions and thats what makes me struggle processing them. Thing is that i usually start very motivated and then it just crumbles cause i forget to be kind to myself.Sorry to hear about the relapse but glad to see you back here. Even when you feel shame because of what you've been doing, I recommend that you come to this forum and post about what happened.
I've built up some long streaks in the past and then when things went bad I left the forum and didn't come back until months later when I'd messed up all my progress.
We don't judge you, we've all done things we didn't feel good about too, we want the best for you, but we will be sad to hear bad news.
Negative emotions don't always have to be negative, they're your body and mind telling you that you're not living congruently with your best self. They're there to help give you the push to change.
Good luck for the interview and looking forward to seeing you build up another streak.
Thanks for the support! Your message really helped yesterday. Im better now, the emotions have passed and im going to try and be sober for at least a month on weed and alcohol, besides pmoSounds like your brain is trying to trick you into a relapse.
Try vigorous exercise or taking a walk. You need a reset.