Hello guys,
I am writing this thread to look for some accountability in my journey. I have been addicted to PMO since i was 11 (i am 24 now) and i have been watching more and more perverted things. I used to be very confident but this addiction destroyed any particle of joy and lifeforce in my body. PMO has kept me in this lust energy for more than a decade. About 2 months ago i started to masturbate with dildos and its like a drug addiction that sucks every little energy out of me. Every time i make some progress like a 2 weeks streak, i would get very tensed and the withdrawls would make me go crazy and then relapse hard. I am staying positive though because even though last streak lasted one week, I managed to transmute the energy using qigong meditations and it actually worked. I got the energy to circulate through my body and not stay stuck in the pelvis region and being horny all the time. I was also doing some wim hof breathing and it really made the withdrawls and everything way more bearable. I actually had energy to look towards my future and pick up a new skill. I genuinely had way more energy this small streak than when i did a 90 days streak way back in the days.
Anyways, what i a looking for is accuntability from you guys. Sometimes i have glimpses of the potential i have, but every time i start to have some momentum, i start to rationalize why its okay to slip up. My goal is to reach 90 days of no porn and masturbation. I will try to post regularly and when im going through hard times. Im just so sick of this bullshit. It made me lazy, dumb, took away my willpower, made me not leave the house for days and so on. This has to stop now.
I am writing this thread to look for some accountability in my journey. I have been addicted to PMO since i was 11 (i am 24 now) and i have been watching more and more perverted things. I used to be very confident but this addiction destroyed any particle of joy and lifeforce in my body. PMO has kept me in this lust energy for more than a decade. About 2 months ago i started to masturbate with dildos and its like a drug addiction that sucks every little energy out of me. Every time i make some progress like a 2 weeks streak, i would get very tensed and the withdrawls would make me go crazy and then relapse hard. I am staying positive though because even though last streak lasted one week, I managed to transmute the energy using qigong meditations and it actually worked. I got the energy to circulate through my body and not stay stuck in the pelvis region and being horny all the time. I was also doing some wim hof breathing and it really made the withdrawls and everything way more bearable. I actually had energy to look towards my future and pick up a new skill. I genuinely had way more energy this small streak than when i did a 90 days streak way back in the days.
Anyways, what i a looking for is accuntability from you guys. Sometimes i have glimpses of the potential i have, but every time i start to have some momentum, i start to rationalize why its okay to slip up. My goal is to reach 90 days of no porn and masturbation. I will try to post regularly and when im going through hard times. Im just so sick of this bullshit. It made me lazy, dumb, took away my willpower, made me not leave the house for days and so on. This has to stop now.
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