Day 1: It was kind of stupid. Went to the gym wednesday, got into a chat with two guys, chatting turned to flirting, flirting turned to sexual comments, they asked me if I was up for some fun and so I went home with them. I really don't have a problem with that, but I called in sick from work yesterday because I wasn't 'done' yet which I probably shouldn't have done. Then yesterday afternoon I had this massive urge to watch porn. Perhaps I was still horny because of the night and morning before, perhaps I did feel a bit bad for calling in sick or perhaps it was just built up tension. I don't know, but I spent a couple of hours during the afternoon and evening watching porn. I don't feel necessarily bad about watching porn, but I felt kinda proud for having gone without porn for over a week. I guess part of me is dissappointed. I guess I'm just not sure yet if not watching porn is such a benefit to my life. I understand that I shouldn't do it when I feel bad, but most of the time I just watch it for my own entertainment. I just don't know.