Hi all,
I am here because I have been seeing a counsellor for the last year about various issues in my life. Porn is one that has come up from time to time in our sessions. I have thought about stopping sometimes but something happened after therapy session last week. I found myself not using porn for a few days and feeling good. One day however, I had a trigger and I felt the usual "why not?/who is it harming?/it's only a little bit of porn and then you can go right back to work/it will feel nice etc etc etc". I thought about how good I had been feeling for the last few days and stayed with my trigger for a few moments. Almost out of desperation I decided to look up some information about porn addiction. A way to use the energy I had for recovery I guess. I didn't want to ignore the feeling and try and distract myself in other ways. I came across 'Your Brain On Porn' and started listening to it whilst working. I immediately felt better and my trigger strength started diminishing. Over the next few hours/days I felt as though I had come up on a beautiful wave of life. I have been feeling so empowered over the last few days. I am also abstaining from alcohol and weed for the last month or so, but never abstained from porn. My therapist believes all of these are addictions and intertwined. I am on day 10 and I believe I have never felt as pure in my adult life as I have this past week. I have had an extremely productive week, getting many tasks done that I would otherwise neglect till the last minute or indefinitely. I can identify with much of what I've heard in YBOP, and it feels good. I'm not sure what's happening but it strikes me that this is no coincidence that this sense of empowerment has come over me during the longest stretch of time without porn, probably since my mid/late teens. I feel that I have the space and energy to accomplish my full potential.
At this time I'm not entirely sure where I stand with my substance use. I am doing my best to examine myself at the moment, but I can confidently say that I'm starting to believe my using of porn has effected my life in all areas. My use was out of control and I wasn't even aware of its effects enough to be in denial about it. I am so glad I found YBOP and everything that it has led me to. That day that I started listening to it instead of using porn feels like some kind of birth-day for me.
I am here writing this now because I found myself triggered once again. I had been listening to YBOP and another book whenever I felt triggered but today I wanted to try something new.
Thank you for setting up this forum and sharing your experience and wisdom, and for making it so available.
Wishing you all the best.
Cnai
I am here because I have been seeing a counsellor for the last year about various issues in my life. Porn is one that has come up from time to time in our sessions. I have thought about stopping sometimes but something happened after therapy session last week. I found myself not using porn for a few days and feeling good. One day however, I had a trigger and I felt the usual "why not?/who is it harming?/it's only a little bit of porn and then you can go right back to work/it will feel nice etc etc etc". I thought about how good I had been feeling for the last few days and stayed with my trigger for a few moments. Almost out of desperation I decided to look up some information about porn addiction. A way to use the energy I had for recovery I guess. I didn't want to ignore the feeling and try and distract myself in other ways. I came across 'Your Brain On Porn' and started listening to it whilst working. I immediately felt better and my trigger strength started diminishing. Over the next few hours/days I felt as though I had come up on a beautiful wave of life. I have been feeling so empowered over the last few days. I am also abstaining from alcohol and weed for the last month or so, but never abstained from porn. My therapist believes all of these are addictions and intertwined. I am on day 10 and I believe I have never felt as pure in my adult life as I have this past week. I have had an extremely productive week, getting many tasks done that I would otherwise neglect till the last minute or indefinitely. I can identify with much of what I've heard in YBOP, and it feels good. I'm not sure what's happening but it strikes me that this is no coincidence that this sense of empowerment has come over me during the longest stretch of time without porn, probably since my mid/late teens. I feel that I have the space and energy to accomplish my full potential.
At this time I'm not entirely sure where I stand with my substance use. I am doing my best to examine myself at the moment, but I can confidently say that I'm starting to believe my using of porn has effected my life in all areas. My use was out of control and I wasn't even aware of its effects enough to be in denial about it. I am so glad I found YBOP and everything that it has led me to. That day that I started listening to it instead of using porn feels like some kind of birth-day for me.
I am here writing this now because I found myself triggered once again. I had been listening to YBOP and another book whenever I felt triggered but today I wanted to try something new.
Thank you for setting up this forum and sharing your experience and wisdom, and for making it so available.
Wishing you all the best.
Cnai