Sorry, I sent that last message early by mistake.
I realise I need support from others if I am to get free but I have been such an island in my life, I don’t share my inner self with people and I don’t let people in. I am in such a habit of not talking to people and I know it’s really bad for me.
I’m in counselling which helps but I am also looking at attending some support groups (not SA but I e considered it). I’m so tired of doing it alone. I have high functioning autism and I’ve found life can be stressful and challenging. While I’m mostly happy I really want my freedom from this horrible addiction.
wish me luck