@LS90
I appreciate what you're saying; I'm just annoyed because I paid for it. My mind just went into a meltdown because of the lack of action and I feel so stupid for doing so. If you judged me, I wouldn't blame you at all. The PMO binge was a direct result of my shame in having paid for it.
The O's weren't great at all actually, they were fabricated in my mind as being great. But after O, there was that sense of a void that you get from M'ing to P, something that we all avoid. I had a read of that link you sent me again, thanks for that mate. I really needed to see that again, I'm just going to focus on my 2nd streak. I'll check you out in a sec.
@Bluefly
Hey man, I'm flattered that you thought of me as an inspiration for you. I'll have a look at your story once I've posted this. As for what you've said, you're right mate, I just beat myself up so much about it. I'd seen people on here like Kaybee, LS90 etc, who have all done incredibly well, just end up relapsing and feeding their addiction again. Because I didn't relapse when they did, I think I thought I was going to be part of that small statistic of people that make it through to the other side without a relapse. I was wrong lol. But hey, just like it all started again. Gonna revert back to my 5 day journals!
I appreciate what you're saying; I'm just annoyed because I paid for it. My mind just went into a meltdown because of the lack of action and I feel so stupid for doing so. If you judged me, I wouldn't blame you at all. The PMO binge was a direct result of my shame in having paid for it.
The O's weren't great at all actually, they were fabricated in my mind as being great. But after O, there was that sense of a void that you get from M'ing to P, something that we all avoid. I had a read of that link you sent me again, thanks for that mate. I really needed to see that again, I'm just going to focus on my 2nd streak. I'll check you out in a sec.
@Bluefly
Hey man, I'm flattered that you thought of me as an inspiration for you. I'll have a look at your story once I've posted this. As for what you've said, you're right mate, I just beat myself up so much about it. I'd seen people on here like Kaybee, LS90 etc, who have all done incredibly well, just end up relapsing and feeding their addiction again. Because I didn't relapse when they did, I think I thought I was going to be part of that small statistic of people that make it through to the other side without a relapse. I was wrong lol. But hey, just like it all started again. Gonna revert back to my 5 day journals!