Day 117
There was an experiment with rats or mice not sure where they put a cable in the reward brain from the rat and linked it to a button that the rats could press. As it turned out, the rats pressed the buttons until they died of starving. They at no moment had the motivation to eat something, even tho there was the best possible food liyng right next to them.
The experiment shows in an extreme way that we will not have a happy and fullfilled life when we hijack our reward system and completely suck every inch out of it. Quite the opposite.
Porn is more or less exactly like these cables. It is cold, damaging, too extreme, an overload of undeserved, unfulfilling short term pleasure. It is never worth. fuck these cables. The reward system is very vulnerable. I surely learned this the hard way. lets keep going