my journey, 25, male, PMO since ~11, 100% ED, done with this shit forever, it did enough harm

Simon2

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Keep it up! You're doing great and can leave this shit behind you in 2023.

Random thought reading some of your journal:
I think a real key to overcome performance issues with a real girl is also to really put no pressure on yourself. Don't worry if you'll O. You can have amazing sex without O. Focus on how to make HER feel great. Take time to arouse each other before penetration. If you can't keep the erection when you try for sex, just go back to making her feel great... It's ok. Especially if you let her know about the issues you've had in the past. Then you can work on it together.
 

swimmer97

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Keep it up! You're doing great and can leave this shit behind you in 2023.

Random thought reading some of your journal:
I think a real key to overcome performance issues with a real girl is also to really put no pressure on yourself. Don't worry if you'll O. You can have amazing sex without O. Focus on how to make HER feel great. Take time to arouse each other before penetration. If you can't keep the erection when you try for sex, just go back to making her feel great... It's ok. Especially if you let her know about the issues you've had in the past. Then you can work on it together.
Hi Simon, thank you for reading my journal and these encouraging words. This sounds like a very good approach when it comes to my situation. I will keep this in mind. Have a great day
 

swimmer97

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Day 29 no pmo

Who would have thought that i say that but the last relapse was actually very important. Since then i am deeply rejecting my P induced fetish which resulted in me not thinking about it at all. not being tempted to think about it. Only hard triggers could get me there but i do my best to avoid these.
 

swimmer97

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Day 31

current body metrics:

75,5kg 14,3% BF

made great progress so far. I can see visual results of being more lean. feels so great. i want to get to 12%
 

swimmer97

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Day 32

I spend so many years of my life in front of a computer. Games, porn, social media, usless youtube watching etc Constant dopamin abuse.

Now that i try to quit all of it, I realize how hard is it to break the habits. Especially as an introvert its hard.

Need to find stuff to do that is outside my comfort zone.
 

swimmer97

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Day 33 no PMO

had a partial wet dream last night. was able to stop the ejaculation half time. shows how hard i am rejecting my fetish. i am waiting up middle of the night to stop this madness.

"nocturnal emission? continue the mission."
 

Androg

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I was talking to a friend today who says that if you want to stop wet dreams without fighting yourself, give yourself the suggestion during meditation, or just before falling asleep that you will wake up in time to shift gears if such a dream arises. Just something you could try.
 

swimmer97

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I was talking to a friend today who says that if you want to stop wet dreams without fighting yourself, give yourself the suggestion during meditation, or just before falling asleep that you will wake up in time to shift gears if such a dream arises. Just something you could try.
Thank you androg for this advice. I can see where this comes from. When i tell myself to wake up at a certain time, i actually wake up around this time even without an alarm. The mind is very strong. I will try it with this as well.
 
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swimmer97

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Day 34

Yesterday Night i lay in bed. When the urges hit hard its like a hole that you can fall in really fast with rationalization and riding the dopamin.

The Dopmain is so high that it can be so tempting to say "fuck it, lets just do it" for some milli seconds and then the long pain gets in.

Was able to overcome it by getting into a comfortable non sexual position and thinking about reasons why i decided to quit. Future visions. The pain that i know will come in etc. All this is needed to slowly going back to normal mode and continue.

For anyone who is truly addicted. This fight aint easy. There are 30 days where its easy and then there can be 1 BIG urge. Its these urges that decide if you are victorious in the end. The GOOD thing. These urges get less + they get weaker. But still, never disrespect them. Doesnt matter how long your into recovery. Its a beast that gets smaller but needs to be respected for a lifetime.

Lets keep moving
 

swimmer97

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Day 35

Was watching a stream yesterday from the official german education channel about porn with people being pro/contra. I was shocked how many were pro porn. The education is so bad on this one. Surprisingly or not surprisingly only contra porn people were young men aka the peoepl that consum this shit and face the negative sides. The porn producers/actors and an expert that "studies" porn was fully pro porn. with arguemnts like "its good to find out about yourself" "its good to let off some pressure " "people that watch porn jsut have high libido" etc. we all know these empty arguments. the general education is so bad when it comes to this topic. sadly many addicts of course want to believe the mentioned shit arguments that feed their addiction.

Btw im not completely anti porn even tho i hate it. for me its like a hard drug e.g strong alcohol that these industry people try to talk down to the young people that are ruining there health with it.
 

Androg

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Day 35

Was watching a stream yesterday from the official german education channel about porn with people being pro/contra. I was shocked how many were pro porn. The education is so bad on this one. Surprisingly or not surprisingly only contra porn people were young men aka the peoepl that consum this shit and face the negative sides. The porn producers/actors and an expert that "studies" porn was fully pro porn. with arguemnts like "its good to find out about yourself" "its good to let off some pressure " "people that watch porn jsut have high libido" etc. we all know these empty arguments. the general education is so bad when it comes to this topic. sadly many addicts of course want to believe the mentioned shit arguments that feed their addiction.

Btw im not completely anti porn even tho i hate it. for me its like a hard drug e.g strong alcohol that these industry people try to talk down to the young people that are ruining there health with it.
This post was fascinating. The "only contra porn people were young men aka the peoepl that consum this shit and face the negative sides."
 

swimmer97

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Day 37

Woke up with a rock hard, strong, natural boner. Man, what a feeling.

From now on i am no longer addicted to porn or mastubation.

I decided to be addicted to these natural, healthy erections that make me feel like being an innocent teenager again. give me more of these.

they mean healing. they mean freedom. they mean victory
 
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swimmer97

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Day 38 no PMO

A small success story i want to share




I also developed premature ejaculation due to chronic masturbation. at some point all i wanted was a quick realese so i uncounscisly trained my brain and dick to climax within seconds + not even being fully erect.

When looking back, i cant even believe what i have done there to myself in these young years...... What ever.

This success story gives me motivation to also fix my PE with trying to never masturbate again + no porn ofc.

there is only one way to go now, its foward.
 
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