Blondie
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Merry Christmas @Beautiful1973. Thanks for all your encouragement.
Betrayed by porn......the demise of intimacy, a partners tale!
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GBS
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How’s it going @Beautiful1973 ? I feel as though I am being nosey by asking, but I promise you it is just concern.
Beautiful1973
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Beautiful1973
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Beautiful1973
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The girl is coming back to life boys
I’ve had an awesome week getting back into work, gym and yoga. Had a session with my Counsellor, she said to me ‘you’re a survivor Beth, it takes strong people to overcome betrayal’, she’s proud of all the work I’ve put in over the last few months and prioritising my self care.
Today I went to a spiritual festival by myself, there was yoga, dancing, workshops, music, sun…… and more beautiful men than I’ve ever seen in one place…. felt like I was in some sort of utopia When I was leaving an older couple had accidentally driven their car into a ditch, so me and 4 dudes pushed it out for them….. these thighs were made for this exact scenario
On the way home I stopped at a bay/beach I’ve never been to before, no togs, no towel, so stripped down to my lacy underwear and swam in the ocean….. it was so good…. forgot what a kickarse bitch I am when I want to be…..
I’ve set myself some goals for the year, the first one is to put some of this new found energy and motivation back into my business, as it’s been a bit neglected recently. The other one is to start weight training again, so I’m in the process of finding a Personal Trainer, that can design me a program to help me shred, and hopefully enjoys Boxing, so I can spar with him.
Just feel like I’m living my best life at the moment and looking forward to what’s to come.
Thanks @GBS for check in fella, as you can see I’m doing great and relishing in finding myself again
I haven’t felt like this since I was 25….. that’s 1/2 a lifetime ago
Don’t let porn or age or time, hold you back boys, get out there and enjoy what life has to offer.
Thank you all for giving me an outlet to express my feelings, and hopefully you’ve all felt my compassion and empathy towards what a battle & beast this addiction is!
Peace, love & light xx
I’ve had an awesome week getting back into work, gym and yoga. Had a session with my Counsellor, she said to me ‘you’re a survivor Beth, it takes strong people to overcome betrayal’, she’s proud of all the work I’ve put in over the last few months and prioritising my self care.
Today I went to a spiritual festival by myself, there was yoga, dancing, workshops, music, sun…… and more beautiful men than I’ve ever seen in one place…. felt like I was in some sort of utopia
When I was leaving an older couple had accidentally driven their car into a ditch, so me and 4 dudes pushed it out for them….. these thighs were made for this exact scenarioOn the way home I stopped at a bay/beach I’ve never been to before, no togs, no towel, so stripped down to my lacy underwear and swam in the ocean….. it was so good…. forgot what a kickarse bitch I am when I want to be…..
I’ve set myself some goals for the year, the first one is to put some of this new found energy and motivation back into my business, as it’s been a bit neglected recently. The other one is to start weight training again, so I’m in the process of finding a Personal Trainer, that can design me a program to help me shred, and hopefully enjoys Boxing, so I can spar with him.
Just feel like I’m living my best life at the moment and looking forward to what’s to come.
Thanks @GBS for check in fella, as you can see I’m doing great and relishing in finding myself again
I haven’t felt like this since I was 25….. that’s 1/2 a lifetime agoDon’t let porn or age or time, hold you back boys, get out there and enjoy what life has to offer.
Thank you all for giving me an outlet to express my feelings, and hopefully you’ve all felt my compassion and empathy towards what a battle & beast this addiction is!
Peace, love & light xx
Blondie
Respected Member
Sounds like an awesome day @Beautiful1973 
Happy for you xxThe girl is coming back to life boys
I’ve had an awesome week getting back into work, gym and yoga. Had a session with my Counsellor, she said to me ‘you’re a survivor Beth, it takes strong people to overcome betrayal’, she’s proud of all the work I’ve put in over the last few months and prioritising my self care.
Today I went to a spiritual festival by myself, there was yoga, dancing, workshops, music, sun…… and more beautiful men than I’ve ever seen in one place…. felt like I was in some sort of utopia
On the way home I stopped at a bay/beach I’ve never been to before, no togs, no towel, so stripped down to my lacy underwear and swam in the ocean….. it was so good…. forgot what a kickarse bitch I am when I want to be…..
I’ve set myself some goals for the year, the first one is to put some of this new found energy and motivation back into my business, as it’s been a bit neglected recently. The other one is to start weight training again, so I’m in the process of finding a Personal Trainer, that can design me a program to help me shred, and hopefully enjoys Boxing, so I can spar with him.
Just feel like I’m living my best life at the moment and looking forward to what’s to come.
Thanks @GBS for check in fella, as you can see I’m doing great and relishing in finding myself again
Don’t let porn or age or time, hold you back boys, get out there and enjoy what life has to offer.
Thank you all for giving me an outlet to express my feelings, and hopefully you’ve all felt my compassion and empathy towards what a battle & beast this addiction is!
Peace, love & light xx
TryingHarder
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Great news, Beautiful. Glad to hear you're doing well!
Beautiful1973
Active Member
Hey fellas,
Feeling absolutely crap tonight…. this weekend would have marked 3 years since the man (ex) and I went on our first date….. I knew it was brewing and tonight I couldn’t push the emotions down anymore and after what was a lovely dinner out with my children, I found myself standing at my kitchen sink with tears rolling down my face ….. next minute I felt these loving arms around my waist and a sweet little voice said ‘it’s OK mummy, I’m here’……
I’m really struggling to rebuild my self esteem, which I’ll talk about at another time, but I think for tonight I’ll let the stunning Amy Lee do the rest of the talking!
Feeling absolutely crap tonight…. this weekend would have marked 3 years since the man (ex) and I went on our first date….. I knew it was brewing and tonight I couldn’t push the emotions down anymore and after what was a lovely dinner out with my children, I found myself standing at my kitchen sink with tears rolling down my face ….. next minute I felt these loving arms around my waist and a sweet little voice said ‘it’s OK mummy, I’m here’……
I’m really struggling to rebuild my self esteem, which I’ll talk about at another time, but I think for tonight I’ll let the stunning Amy Lee do the rest of the talking!
Blondie
Respected Member
Sorry to hear this @Beautiful1973.
I'm not the greatest empath, certainly not a digital one, but here's a quote I thought you'd like.
Thanks for what you do around here, your feminine light is quite inspiring, at least it is to me. Don't let some man who couldn't get out of his own way destroy the beautiful energy that you have, or worse, define yourself because of him and his perpetual problems.
Cry if you must, shout to the heavens if need be, but keep that inspiring light within you burning strong. None of us are perfect, but you definitely deserve someone is willing to work on themselves better than he did.
The universe is in constant change, all we can do is change with it.
Best to you lady.
I'm not the greatest empath, certainly not a digital one, but here's a quote I thought you'd like.
Thanks for what you do around here, your feminine light is quite inspiring, at least it is to me. Don't let some man who couldn't get out of his own way destroy the beautiful energy that you have, or worse, define yourself because of him and his perpetual problems.
Cry if you must, shout to the heavens if need be, but keep that inspiring light within you burning strong. None of us are perfect, but you definitely deserve someone is willing to work on themselves better than he did.
The universe is in constant change, all we can do is change with it.
Best to you lady.
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