Scorpio1990
Active Member
Everyday I wake up and constantly hope to feel normal, no numbness, and no emptiness in my chest. Through this journey I have had thoughts I never had before of life. I use to look forward to living life and growing old but now days it seems to not matter. Also adding to it I am having aches and pain which feels like forever. I constantly think if this will last forever and will I loose everything I worked hard for since I lack motivation. I tried everything to get help from my doctor and therapist but the answer to my problem from them is medication which I never needed or took. My gf and family members tell me to turn to god but I feel that won’t make difference since I gave on religion years ago. I still push a try to do normal things to keep me going but man I wish knew the consequences of PMO. I can honestly say it ruin my life. I’ll keep pushing.