Hello,
I became aware about my porn/masturbation addiction a couple of years ago and have tried on several occasions to quit. My record for holding up is 10 days. I created this account so I can keep a log here for everyday. I think it will help me a lot.
Porn has been a part of my daily life (almost every day) for more than a decade. It is only in recent years I realize how much damage it has caused me.
I have been addicted to other things in my life but I managed to quit most of them. They include tobacco and drinking caffeinated beverages. So I know I can do it but porn is the hardest opponent yet.
My goal is to not masturbate or watch porn for 21 days.
So starting tomorrow.
About me:
I am 34 years old single male. I have been on a journey of self improvement for the last 4-5 years. I can't tell you exactly when it started but a couple a years ago I suddenly realized that I was not happy at all about my life. I wasnt depressed or anything like that but I did not feel that I was really living my potential.
At that time I was about 29 and working in a job I was ok with but had no passion for. The pay was not any good either.
I had in the last decade had one good relationship with a woman I loved for almost a year and a couple of short ones with girls I really did not love. I had also slept with a dozen or so.
Most of the time I was living alone and had somehow managed to fool myself that I enjoyed being alone. I still don't mind being alone just not all the fucking time.
I also had become slightly overweight and really not taking care of my overall apperance.
I used tobacco and drank a lot of coffee.
I was a heavy porn user and masturbated everyday.
I don't remember which book I started with but I began to consume a lot of self-help material. Like anything in life there is a lot of junk but some gems too. I started questioning my habits and thinking. For the first time in my life I became aware that I was addicted to a lot of stuff that had profound effects on my life.
My addictions I had were:
I was addicted to porn and masturbating.(Causing me to spend much time alone, having less sex with women, being anti-social sometimes, no relationship)
I was addicted to caffeine.(Did not sleep really well)
I was addicted to tobbacco.(Higher blood pressure, ugly teeth, disgusting breath)
I was addicted to gambling(My years as a poker professional had made me addicted to the thrill of gambling. Not in a way that I was losing money but choosing to play before e.g. socializing etc..)
I was addicted to weed. (Smoking almost every weekend.)
I decided to make changes.
Now after 5 years I have successfully gotten rid of my tobbacco, caffeine and gambling addictions. I have yet to conquer weed and porn. I also have lost a lot of weight, I eat healthy and have a job which I really like.
I became aware about my porn/masturbation addiction a couple of years ago and have tried on several occasions to quit. My record for holding up is 10 days. I created this account so I can keep a log here for everyday. I think it will help me a lot.
Porn has been a part of my daily life (almost every day) for more than a decade. It is only in recent years I realize how much damage it has caused me.
I have been addicted to other things in my life but I managed to quit most of them. They include tobacco and drinking caffeinated beverages. So I know I can do it but porn is the hardest opponent yet.
My goal is to not masturbate or watch porn for 21 days.
So starting tomorrow.
About me:
I am 34 years old single male. I have been on a journey of self improvement for the last 4-5 years. I can't tell you exactly when it started but a couple a years ago I suddenly realized that I was not happy at all about my life. I wasnt depressed or anything like that but I did not feel that I was really living my potential.
At that time I was about 29 and working in a job I was ok with but had no passion for. The pay was not any good either.
I had in the last decade had one good relationship with a woman I loved for almost a year and a couple of short ones with girls I really did not love. I had also slept with a dozen or so.
Most of the time I was living alone and had somehow managed to fool myself that I enjoyed being alone. I still don't mind being alone just not all the fucking time.
I also had become slightly overweight and really not taking care of my overall apperance.
I used tobacco and drank a lot of coffee.
I was a heavy porn user and masturbated everyday.
I don't remember which book I started with but I began to consume a lot of self-help material. Like anything in life there is a lot of junk but some gems too. I started questioning my habits and thinking. For the first time in my life I became aware that I was addicted to a lot of stuff that had profound effects on my life.
My addictions I had were:
I was addicted to porn and masturbating.(Causing me to spend much time alone, having less sex with women, being anti-social sometimes, no relationship)
I was addicted to caffeine.(Did not sleep really well)
I was addicted to tobbacco.(Higher blood pressure, ugly teeth, disgusting breath)
I was addicted to gambling(My years as a poker professional had made me addicted to the thrill of gambling. Not in a way that I was losing money but choosing to play before e.g. socializing etc..)
I was addicted to weed. (Smoking almost every weekend.)
I decided to make changes.
Now after 5 years I have successfully gotten rid of my tobbacco, caffeine and gambling addictions. I have yet to conquer weed and porn. I also have lost a lot of weight, I eat healthy and have a job which I really like.