So gang, a difficulty for me has come up. Without going into a TMI moment, I will just say I am having difficulty with my internal lady parts. And there is severe pain off and on. Yes should be going to Dr. and is on my list. But the worrier me knows there will be surgery and that leads to recovery healing. Then right now, no penetration can occur due to pain. Now a little back story when all of this addiction came out ie D-day I had neck surgery and the frozen shoulder and was in extreme pain. So my husband decided he would sleep on the couch. Would make sure I was In Bed had taken my meds so I would sleep. Thoughtful right? That led to no sex and then I found the cause of no sex. I never said no sex. Only, due to surgery healing, no BJs. So this is all very triggering for me. And already because of no penetration, there is not much touching. I did tell him this morning this is not good. Do men not understand that even though something is off the menu does not mean we lose sexual interest and feelings? I will admit I am a little pissed off right now. And a whole lot scared.