Keep killing it @Galatians51, you're doing great.Day 83
so... this was my original journal that I started last year when I first got on RN and I went for 179 days without looking at porn. After I messed up I didn't want to keep writing on the same thread because it made me feel like I failed every time I saw my streak count. I realize that thinking like this isn't the best, and that though I am committed to quitting, documenting that relapse last year is part of the process and I don't want to be ashamed of it. Porn has always made me feel so much shame and hypocrisy in my life, and i don't want to give it that power any more. That's one of the reasons why I quit it, but even with having relapsed last year during my longest streak (in years) I still am proud of the year that I had last year.
I started writing on RN on October 5th, 2022 and was 5 days into the process. So if I add up all the days that I didn't look at porn last year it was about 345 days porn free. I say about because I didn't track everything when I had relapsed and stopped writing every day on here. I honestly think it was less than 20 days of relapse, but I figure I'll play it safe in case it was more than I remember. That's 20 more days than I want to admit to, but overall it was a lot of progress from the previous years.
One week ago was my one year anniversary of being on RN and I'm really happy to be here with all of you tracking my progress and being encouraged by all of our journeys in this process.
I'm going to copy and paste my posts from my other journals that I started over the last year and put them all on this journal and then delete them from my other journals. I'm not trying to hide my relapses anymore, I want my journal to be what i'm really experiencing, regardless of it it's not a perfect streak.
I hope you are all doing well today, I wish you much strength in this process.
Well they're both the bad guys in my estimation, but the Marxists are the ones who gave us this sexual ideology of 24/7wankerism, so there's that.and for leading the charge against orgasm fascists, or their counterpart - I'm still not sure which one is the bad guy lol