Enough is enough


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day 103
MO day 1

I am going to put a focused effort on no more MO. I have MO'd 4 or 5 times over the last 103 days and up until yesterday I had done so without fantasizing. Yesterday I woke up with some old porn images in my mind - not sure why them came, but they did, and then I mo'd with them in my mind... and it felt just as if I had actually PMO'd again, which was strange, shameful and frustrating all at the same time. I have had no problem avoiding porn during this reboot, and even after yesterday's experience I'm more resolute than ever to avoid it. It was like a reminder of how bad I feel after watching porn, so for that - i'm somewhat thankful because I think the longer I go without porn the easier it is to forget how horrible it makes me feel and this was a sharp reminder.

With all that being said, I'm going to quit MO as well as PMO (hence the day 1 tracker).