Thanks for the support! I´m building myself up again, rebooting myself and removing the bad influences that society can sometimes have on us.
I was watching a movie yesterday that probably clicks with lots of people here and the situation they´re in. It is the well-know Lion King actually. You see Simba leaving his social circle, leaving his duties as king-to-be, blaming himself and not giving value and respect to himself. Then, he meets two guys that are in a similar situation and say ´everything is okay, no worries, do not think about the future, be non-aggressive, have no goals in life,...´. When he reconnects with his father, which was a painful struggle throught the branches, he notices that he does have purpose in life, that there is much more than this hedonist, numbing, pleasure-first lifestyle. He becomes a father figure for his family, he reconnects with loved ones and cares for them again. Responsability for the family was an important aspect for his father and now he incorporates that in himself, only after leaving that numbing forest of his "adolescent asexual gang of drop-outs" as a psycho-analyst called the two friends Simba hung up with.